I havent been contacted by them. And Im not sure Ive forgiven them. But I dont resent them. They were young, I have told myself that they have more than likely learnt that behaviour is not acceptable and are not the same as they were at school. I know Im not. It helped to let go of the anger towards them.
I wasn't a very nice person in high school and am ashamed of how I treated some people.
About 4-5 years ago when FB and my space were around, I did contact the people in question and apologised to them. I told them how sorry I was and how ashamed of my behaviour i was. I also told them i didn't expect to hear back from them and would completely understand if they chose not to contact me back or even try to forgive me. All replied and thanked me for seeking them out and apologising and said that they had moved on and held no malice towards a immature high school girl but the fact I still remembered and was remorseful meant alot.
I hate how I was in high school but I also now understand why I was that way. My primary school years were a nightmare and I was bullied beyond belief, thrown rocks at and threatened on a daily basis. When the school failed to intervene my parents changed my school and once i got to the new school I put up a boundary and that boundary was unfort being a bully, I didn't understand that then but I did realise eventually. Its not a excuse I know that.
Funnily enough the people (one year older then me) who made my life a living night mare in primary school have since come into contact with me through friends and i have pulled them up on it and they don't even remember how they treated me. These girls cornered me in toilets, circled me and threw rocks at me, told my little sister they were going to pull her arms and legs off and leave her to die on the path (she was 5). They stole my food and items out of my bag, poured water on me during a school camp. Year 6 was the worst year of my life and they either dont want to admit what they did or dont really remember.
I was never really bullied but picked on quite a bit. A group of girls made high school really hard. A few boys picked on me for having no boobs and called me frigid. But the worst bullying i got was in year 11, i moved on to college and i had let slip to a male friend what things i had done in the bedroom with DP and he spread it around the school and i was called a **** on a daily basis, one girl wanted to bash me over it called me filthy, she would call me names whenever she saw me. They found where i lived (on the same street as the school) and spray painted **** on my drive way. Boys would sit outside my house beeping their horns. They got hold of my email address and back then MSN was huge and one added me as he heard that i was 'well known' for sleeping around. It was quite intense and put a strain on my relationship and friendships broke down. I ended up dropping out.
The girl who bullied me came into my work on new years day 2010, i thought 'here we go she will recognise me and say something' well she did but asked how i was, what i was doing with my life besides working where i was and was genuinely happy to hear i was pregnant. I see her around often and she is now a junkie leading a life of crime so makes me think maybe there was a reason why she treated me the way she did.
I don't know if i have forgiven or just forgotten about it.
In your case Muffy, i think telling her what she did to you may make you feel better (if you still hold grudges) Otherwise maybe hitting that 'block' button will be enough.
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