I'm not really feeling 'crampy', but kind of just a 'feeling'... do you know what I mean?
One more shot of pregnyl tonight, and then BT on Thursday.
I'm a bit scared. Last time (failed) I had mega sore BB, and was even feeling queasy. I was on crinone at the time. This time - nothing really. Very slight sore BB, but not feeling queasy at all.
I started freaking out at work today because I researched pregnyl & a few pages said it was meant to be intramuscular injection, and I've been doing mine into my (chubby) stomach. I really wanna get excited & start reading all my pg books again, but after the heart break of last time, I just don't have the strength to read about happy, healthy pregnancies, or read about active birth, when it all seems so far away.
I almost feel like if I hope too hard, I'll pop the little frostie like an angry pimple. And that makes me sad.
Feeling positive. Still hanging out for the BT on thursday. I think I'll cheat again & do HPT that morning. That way I won't be a mess if I get 'the' phone call again.
But I'm feeling really happy. BB aren't sore unless I push them. Dunno if that means anything. I'm changing jobs on Friday next week & I'm already missing stacks of the guys I work with (I currently work at an underground mine). But I'm so happy about the new job opportunity (open pits), that I'm not too sad about leaving all my mates.
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