Thanks heaps Slyder and Dusty

I am still coming to terms with what is good, normal or not.

its such an emotional roller coaster as I'm sure you well know. FS said need to have period first (must be about to start - am cooking the fattiest/cheesiest pasta I can get my hands on - not something I would normally eat hahaha) then another period then FET after that. So I might go back and see him late March.

Happy Happy Thoughts