Oh Alison that's what happened on our first pgd cycle, 4 tested, all grew to blasts & all were abnormal, it is so horrible that can be the outcome
Take care of yourself
Yes we then did two Ivf cycles to get more embryos to test, by some fluk in the next epu we got 18 eggs (I had only ever had 6 before, we added luveris that time but I also had it the next time & still only got 6), we had 10 to test the second time but only had the one good from 10
Chem preg here...levels of only 9 which is probably just the left over of my last HCG shot. And the testing doesn't stop there either....when AF finally arrives (could be up to 7 days away!) have to go back for another bt to make sure my levels have baselined & will then have to see the FS again.
Question I have is if my levels are so low why have my symptoms been so full on.
Devastated to say the least...got sent home from work. Not sure how to tell DD4. She has been so excited about us trying to have another baby. Was a bit hard to keep it from her as she had to come to most of my appts.
Oh Joe not good news for you either
The whole symptoms things is so hard, maybe they were from the hcg injection ?
So sorry it wasn't good news for you
oh JoeSpratt - I'm gutted for you, for us both. I wish we could give each other a hug. I've had chemicals before and had symptoms, it's just a part of the cruelty of it all. Whereto here for you? I feel the end of the road but I don't want it to be, not sure where to go next. Seeing the FS next week as a review/follow up but I suspect he'll just say my chances are not good now. Life sucks sometimes, I feel the most terrible I've ever felt. Big hugs to you JS xxxxxx
Hi JoeSpratt how are you feeling today? I woke up hoping it was all a bad dream but alas it was reality. What are your plans from here?
I am thinking of going hardcore on the natural approach and seeing where I end up, I just don't feel done but don't know if that's just me not being able to accept the inevitable or not?
Hi JoeSpratt how are you feeling today? I woke up hoping it was all a bad dream but alas it was reality. What are your plans from here?
I am thinking of going hardcore on the natural approach and seeing where I end up, I just don't feel done but don't know if that's just me not being able to accept the inevitable or not?
SORRY DOUBLE POST!!
Last edited by Alison1973; May 29th, 2013 at 12:23 PM.
Was up half the night & the other half was spent crying...not doing too well! Work has been good & I've been at least able to stay home. not sure I would have been able to face my work colleagues after my mental breakdown yesterday. Tomorrow is going to be bad enough. Just need the hormones to settle & hopefully then the emotions won't be so manic. Can't bring myself to tell my little girl that she won't be a big sister. Not that I don't want to try again but don't think that our finances will stretch that far. DP sees me hurting so much & I don't think he wants me to have to go through the hurt again. I should be happy with my lot as we have the most precious little girl, which is more than some others, but my desire to be a mum again is still burning so strong. We unfortunately can't try the "normal way" as we have a 50/50 chance of transferring the genetic disorder which is terminal & to have to wait until I was 12 weeks to get the results before deciding to terminate would be even more heartbreaking than what we are going through now. Funny how kids pick up on things though. DD could sense something was wrong this morning & tried to fane illness so she could stay home. As much as I would have loved the cuddles, could not have dealt with that today. I know that sounds bad but it is the truth. Seeing me all sad all day would not be good for her & not allowing myself time to grieve is not good for me.
Oh JoeSpratt - you and I are feeling the exact same way, if I hear one more person say, oh well at least you have Amelia - sorry but it's not a consolation, the utter yearning for another child is so strong. I hate the thought that as an older mum my daughter won't have a sibling to keep in company with when I'm in a nursing home!!! I am beyond sad and I'm not coping well either, I understand what you mean, Amelia has 3 year old kindy at 12.15 pm and while I love her to bits I am hanging to drop her off. I just want to be alone, friends want to visit etc., I don't feel like being around people at the moment, yesterday I took Amelia to dancing thinking it would be good to get my mind off it, only for one of the mums to walk in with her week old baby and she sat right next to me. I burst into tears, I felt bad for her but I just couldn't help it. I'm sorry you can't try naturally, it would be silly for me to as well with all my issues but we just don't want to spend any more money on IVF either, it's so hard on the finances. I had to put my dog down (she had leukemia, 12.5 years old) on Monday, my daughter came up to me today with a picture and said, don't be said mumma, I have drawn you a picture of Molly and Nugget in the rainbow. I just burst into tears, I just can't stop crying I don't know how to handle these emotions, just being told your eggs are too crap to conceive is so hard to accept huh.
Whatever happens JS please know that you will be in my thoughts and prayers and I hope you and I can both get our miracle somehow. Life throws curveballs but when are you able to throw them back and say enough?!
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that's what happened on our first pgd cycle, 4 tested, all grew to blasts & all were abnormal, it is so horrible that can be the outcome
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