Foxy I am so sorry. ((((((hug))))) It really sux!!!!!!!

I think using your partners embryos would be so beautiful, that really is coming together and making a child that is really both of yours, in spirit rather than DNA. Her gentic make up with your blood pulsing through it. Totally wonderful in my opinion. And I'm 100% sure you would never feel less of a mother to this child you would carry.
If it were me I'd never hesitate using donor eggs and have actually thought about it as a last resort if needed.

As for the relief feeling I've never had that... But I've also not had 11 transfers like you so I can understand.

Xoxo