Thanks so much everyone - thanks for the support. All really good suggestions, too.
Incomplete, what you say really resonates with me. I too have energy ebbs and flows throughout the day, and find myself a bit bored at my desk, and feel like coffee will perk me up (which it does - it actually just makes me a bit brighter and more talkative and sociable). It's such a reinforced behaviour. I'm sure it's chemical too. I imagine those neural circuits are just so activated now (I've been a coffee enthusiast since a trip to Italy during Uni days).
But I absolutely believe that the best course of action is to give it up (for now). I know on cycles where I've had none (or next to, maybe a slip up now and again), I've have felt really strong and proud of myself. Though my response has always been pretty shocking with IVF, I have to say.
Also, I don't know if anyone saw the news today, but apparently the heart foundation has removed any kind of approval for coffee as an anti-oxidant or to counter heart disease (and red wine too, sadly). Not that I was drinking it for the health benefits!
Anyway, I just really value the input and support.
I am drinking Earl Gray today, which though caffeinated, is a real break through.
Yes, I have to second that on decaff - I really think it's been processed to such a degree, that it's dodgy.
Thanks so much everyone,
WW.