*** Warning: Other people's pregnancies mentioned!

Hi there everyone,

I think Jan 2010 marks my graduation to this forum, since I've been having AC (starting with Clomid) for just over 12 months now! Woo hoo! I've had 3 failed IUIs, and 1 failed IVF with no embryos leftover and now it seems I have an endometrioma on ovary. Anyway, I know that people here are veterans, and perhaps these details aren't helpful.

I'm wondering how people are coping with their fertile friends' pregnancy announcements. I had two really close friends announce recently, one who skipped a pill or two and got pregnant (and she and her partner were really irritated bc they had to call off their trip to South America and go to Europe instead!), and another who tried once, and got pregnant that month. This friend decided she had to tell me face to face, just minutes before I had an appointment (actually, my first ever pilates class (welcome to the 21st century eh needless to say, I didn't do the breathing right). Other friends have conceived 3 children (2 born) within the time we've been trying for 1. I know this sounds like some dumb "keep up with the Jones" thing. Why does it hurt so much? Why am I just enraged and not even slightly happy for them anymore? Why do I suddenly feel like I want to give up and not have a child at all?

My background is in depression, in case you were wondering. Are there any other currently or previously depressed ladies who've managed to keep on keeping on? Any tips on handling these bitter feelings?

Best wishes to all,
WW