AAAWWWWWWW Shelly, I really feel for you!! I am close to tears reading your post!! Man that really sux! How could that happen? Why did it go so wrong? This is such a confusing time. I dont mean to be negative for you I should be trying to prop you up with positive vibes,
Anyway as you say have a good cry get it all outta your system and have a fantastic birthday! If you need to talk we are all here. And I wish you all the best for round 2. make sure they monitor you more closely this time if they can.