Lissie- that's a great number of eggs!!!! I understand about the bursting into tesrs thing, I do it every day and I have no IVF excuse.
Hi SaraJane:
Pam- I tried hypnotherapy but no help, I must stay calm, but am freaking out as I have noticed no EWCM lately... I hate my body, feel like it's letting me down!! All the best for the HyCoSy- take some panadol beforehand, it feels like period pain after.
wow, you guys are so cool...
In answer to a question, yes I had endo removed last year in august and had dye put thru my tubes... I had cysts in both and it looks like maybe only my left tube in working order.. slows things down alittle....I have given this month a miss re TTC, as I feel alittle numb, so many miscarriages ina row is giving me the downer... I know I will pick up, and next month I will be right back into it. I was very emotional during "O" I cryed a whole heap, felt weird, as I dont really cry, nor show much emotion over my losses, its tucked up way deep inside....
SOOOOOOOOO, Im waiting to see a specialist in the miscarriage clinic here in Hamilton, as they seem concerned about me now...ha, was peeved it took so many for them to take me seriously, so we will see what they have to say....
Lissie, wow, go you good eggs you....
Good luck in the TTW betty, its such a drag
Pam, its a good thing the dye thing, I asked for it, and felt better knowing what was going on.....
Big Hi to Jo, and anyone else I may have missed....freezing cold here in NZ, below 0!!!
Hi Ladies.
Sadly my miracle pregnancy came to an end last night. At 9w 5d I M/C at home after a long day of bleeding and pain. DH and I are shattered. I see many of you have been through the same thing. How do you cope? At 43 this was my first pregnancy and I am frightened it will be my last.....my time is fast running out. I feel so very sad and lost.
O my gosh, MrsK, Im so deeply sorry for your loss... words can not express how Im feeling for you right now.... I dont know if you truly do cope at all, all I know is I fumble from day to day...its a time thing, and right now be kind to yourself and DH....keep talking to us to help you through this terribly sad time.the biggest((((hugs ))))) to you.
HI Girls
MrsK - i am so sorry for your loss, its not easy (coping) but you just do it i guess - you find a way, just be kind to yourself right now. I to like you have no kids but have 2 angles in heaven - i too get scared that i may never have kids but don't give up yet - give yourself some time and you will feel a little better. Just keep trying - do you mind if i ask if you are TTC naturally or are you doing IVF? Hope thats not too personal.
YOU are NOT alone MrsK we are with you - we are here to talk to and we do understand - hows hubby coping? I know my husband just wanted to fix things and this was one thing he just could not fix and it made him feel so helpless. Sending you big :hugs: and wish there was something i could do to help with your sadness but i know there isn't.
We are all thinking of you.
Chelle- hope you get some answers from this doctor - why did they take so long to take notice of you - sometimes i think doctors think just cause we are a little older that our age is to blame for all these things but you know what they can be dead wrong. I feel so sad that you lost so many angels - you sound like a very strong woman - you will feel better i know - i say cry when you want to cry.
Betty - don't you just love the TWW - NOT ! it just seems to drag on forever - hope you get the BFP :babydust:
Pam - good luck with the Hycosy - hope it doesn't hurt to much - i too hate pain - hope you get some good results out of it.
Jo- when do you go for your lap?
Me - i go for another blood and ultrasound on Friday and egg pick up at this stage looks like Sunday if all looks good on Friday - the nurse told me they are working on about 6 follies in total so hopefully we get at least 4 eggs - i would be happy with 4 considering my age etc.
Good luck to all : babydust: talk soon
MrsK sorry to hear of your loss, my heart goes out to you your DH.Just take one day at a time.
chelle i went through the miscarriage clinic in Dunedin many years ago was great peace of mind and great people. Still on the TWW and now i have a sore throat.
Mrs K- I am so sorry to hear your news I don't know how I cope, the honest truth is sometimes I don't cope. A social worker and my Gynae help me immensely. Tell yourself, that you CAN get pg and ttc when you can. That's what helps me, ttc. There's a lady on one board in the States who has had 7 m/c (I think) but now 15 weeks pg at 45. She keeps me going.
Chelle-you sound like me- are you ttc naturally or not? I am concerned because last year I was pg around 3 months after each m/c and then after my last m/c, NOTHING. it's been 7 months- I feel like something's wrong big time. I really believe endo is related to m/c but my Drs don't believe it.
Lissie- my lap is now 19 July. Good luck for this weekend- 4 is a great number.
Hi Ladies.
Thank you for your words of support. Lissie to answer your questions, we have been TTC naturally (along with trying many alternative therapies to try and assist). We had just registered for IVF and a week later I discovered I was pregnant. We thought it was a miracle. Meant to be. I guess we were wrong. My husband is devastated. He worries he let me down because he wasn't healthy enough. I worry that it was my fault. Something I did wrong. But neither of us blame each other. We just hold each other and cry alot, and remind each other of how much we love each other. My DH is wonderful. I am lucky to have him.
MrsK,
I read your thread this morning and cried. Neither of you have done nothing wrong - unfortunately not every pregnancy makes it to term as we know - my FS told me after mine that women are always looking at themselves and blaming themselves for something that is completely out of their control - he said this is a very normal response to m/c - but he said to know that most pregnancy that don't make it there was somthing wrong with the embryo. I know nothing anyone can say or do will make you feel any better i just wish i could, just take it day by day and love each other and hang onto the hope of another pregnancy and healthy one at that. I send my love & :hugs: be kind to yourself and just cry.
I thought I'd give you a couple of stories from mothers I know.
In my mothers' group there are two mums over 40, one is a first-time mum.
K was 40 when she conceived her little girl through IVF (infertility on her side). It was their first IVF attempt and she now has a beautiful 15 mth old daughter.
N was 43 when she conceived her 2nd child (her eldest DD is 13), first child with her current DH (also in his 40s). Before conceiving this child she had two losses in the previous 18 mths, one at 9 wks and one at 16 wks (placental problem). But she and her DH now have a beautiful 15 mth old girl!
I wish you all the best and hope to hear some BFP announcements soon.
MrsK I hope you are doing as best as you can at this time....
Jo, when we first started trying for number 5, i really didnt think I would be here now...I feel pregnant fairly easy but miscarried at 14 weeks, then it took 5 months to fall again, and that failed at 6 weeks.A month later same thing, lost it at 6 weeks.....then... a whole 12 months later I fell again, I lost it at 10 weeks......then I fell 2 months after that(truly thought this was the one!!) and lost that also round the 9-10 week mark...so, all natural at this stage, but wondering if I need some help....I have had 2 early miscarriages,one b4 my 15 yr old and one after my 10 yr old...very strange how the body can take charge.My first three children are with my ex husband, and I have been with my current hubby for 6 years, and he had no children, so was always the "plan" to have a couple...we are very lucky to have our 3yr old son....the old saying just one more is alot harder....I have had all the tests,to check Im ovulating, they have checked my losses, there seems to be know probs... but well there must be something, or its extemly bad luck.I refuse to think it is because Im 4o, as this was happening when I was 38,ha ha.....
Thanks for the positive storys Jennifer
Good luck with your scan Betty
Goodluck with your scan and bloods, for Friday Lissie. Youa re in for a very busy weekend...you are in my prayers!
Anywho, must go turn on the heaters, coldy......
Big""""HI""""" to all you beautiful woman....
Also had 2 losses at 28-29 y o. Then 3 kids, then at 38.9 got pg right away but m/c at 9 weeks, then 3 more losses in the last 3 years all at 9 weeks plus.
I'm going to keep ttc but the temps and obsessive checking for non existent EWCM is doing my head in! I think my hormones have gone AWOL since the last m/c 7 months ago. DH is so certain we will have a baby, he is totally sure. I hope he's right!
Jennifer13- thanks for the stories, it's always encouraging to hear.
O my we do sound very similar Jo......Yes Im glad I had a month off from my obsession!!!Cant wait to get into it next month...Just hope I have heard from SP in that time...may have to ring them...see if there is anything in the pipeline soon!
We will all be taking Babies home, I just know it....I mean isnt it a beautiful thing we all want...Why shouldnt we get it!
Take care, nighty nite
Thought it was time for a quick drop by, it's been a while since I visited.
MrsK - I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. You just have to take each day just one day at a time. Some days will be good, others will be bad and that can go on for a while. I've had two m/c a decade apart and have no children of my own, but am very fortunate to have a lovely stepdaughter. I'm 41. I too am about to head towards IVF as the gyno told me that you can't leave things to chance at my age and it will give any future pregnancy the best chance of surviving. I don't know what I'd have done without BB to get me through the last few months. It's not something you want to talk about in the real world but somehow talking about it in here does help you. I've typed many a post and cried while doing it but that rarely happens now. Nothing you or your partner did contributed to it.... it's just one of those things.
Hi to everyone else.
I'm in my TWW again and for once I'm not obsessed about it. Yaaaaay!!!! I'm pretty sure that we missed DTD close enough to O as it looks like I O'd on CD16 instead of CD13or CD14 like usual. With the pressure off this cycle I can have what I would normally call "symptoms" and not think anything of it. I've been feeling yuck all arvo & almost threw up at work today & for once I haven't attributed this to an upcoming BFP.... it would be way too early for that anyway but it hasn't stopped me from imagining it in previous cycles. Instead I think its stress from family dramas and too much work to do.
I've had my paperwork from the hospital network and I should get my lap done within 90 days which is great.... looks like on average its about 90-120 days for the hospital that I'm likely to end up in.... so a few more chances of conception up my sleeve before things start getting official.
Big wooohooo! I rang our gyne clinic here in Hamilton, and I asked when I might be seen... Well the reply was they are running at least 5 months behind!!!! My voice must have sounded sooooo sad, and after talking to her for awhile about what I should do meanwhile,(only the desk lady!) she said, look you need to be seen and gave me an apointment for Wed next week...Im so excited ..... I will come away with a plan.Last time I came away with nothing, and miscrried,so hopefully they will take me seriously!!!!
Oooh I told you b4 DH,but you will prob understand my excitment alittle more than him....hehe
All the best for the HyCoSy- take some panadol beforehand, it feels like period pain after. 
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