Hi everyone, MrsK I'm really sorry that you have lost your beautiful miracle baby. Both yourself and your husband have done nothing worry, so please don't blame yourselves. Coping is very difficult, I would recommend that you both see a counsellor and let yourself grieve. I had one child after my 3 MC and she was 10 years old at the time, I really felt that there was no way that I was going to have another successful preg and the devastation I felt was huge. There seemed to be preg women/ new babies everywhere, I would find myself crying in shopping centres, judgeing peoples worthiness of motherhood and feeling guilty at the same time. I talked to lots of people and got a lot of responses that really hurt me. It really seems to be a taboo subject talking about preg before 12 weeks you just don't do it. The best thing I have ever done is jump on here, I wish I had done it earlier, you get to say things that the outside world does'nt want to hear or just does'nt understand. It is early days and I don't want to hurt you, but is it worth putting your name back on the IVF list who knows how long it may take before your turn comes along. Amongst my grieveing the desire to become preg again was huge. Please take care of yourself. Loads of :hugs:Pam.