Ive tried to repond to this several times and I cant find the words I want to explain the answers Im trying to. It never got easier for me and it still isnt. I find my first response to IRL births, pregnancies etc are often earth shattering. Its not easier but it is different iykwim. Dont ever ever give up hope, without hope of oneday getting there you really have nothing left to cling to. I really dont think it is something you can ever truely let go but I do hope you find your 'ok' place.