Oh Possums, I don't know that I can say anything to help, I know that this is just so hard for you. I hope that time will make the difference, your heart will slowly heal and you too can start to look forward again. I too struggle with the different perspective that DH has, perhaps ask yours to allow you to talk about this as much as you want, to grieve, to vent and rage, and make him understand that this is not something that he has to 'fix' or 'make better', that he just needs to listen to what you have to say.

I wish I could take it all away for you. I really hope your tests give you some resolution or something to work on and pray that you will soon have your forever baby in your arms. Hugs