I know it sounds crazy, I have another thread "11 miscarriages and still trying" or something like that, and everyones support was fantastic. I need a bit more of that right now.
I am having "one of those days". You know the ones where the longing for a baby and the heartbreak outweighs everything else that day? I know I am doing everything I can, and nothing really triggered it, but I just can't stop crying. All I want to do is wrap myself in my dh's arms and bawl my eyes out.
Why is it so hard? You fall in love you get married and the contraception is practically thrown out along with your garter. Everyone wishes you well and pretty soon friends and family are awaiting a certain phone call or little message with a smile on your face.
But no, all of my little messages turn into heartbreak, and having to tell everyone, "Sorry, it wasn't meant to be".
Eight years later and I am a total wreck, tonight anyway. I'm sorry for the wipe out but I just thought if i wrote/typed it down it would make me feel a little better, and less like an idiot.Sometimes venting can help, other times it opens up a whole other can of worms.
Please, please anyone who has had one of these days, please respond, i would love to know how you are all coping with times like these.
xxxxxxx