hun, i so wish i could just wrap my arms around you and ive you a big hug and a shoulder to cry on. it's so hard - you put on the brave face for family and friends, and bottle it all up, keeping up the facade that everything is ok, and that you're coping, and eventually it has to come out.

i can't claim to have been through the same amount of heartache as you have, but i so feel for you - i've lost two angels, and am struggling to fulfil this need within me to become a mum, and sometimes it just all gets to much. i want to tell the world to go to hell, curl up in bed and just drown in my own tears. there's nothing i can say to make the day your having any easier to cope with - i just wanted to let you know that i can completely sympathise with you. am thinking of you and sending you massive hugs.

take care - and let yourself feel hun - don't be ashamed to grieve - there's nothing wrong with it at all

ETA: - forgot to put this before - when i'm having a really bad day, i struggle to sleep, and have started writing it all out - have written some poems and things to try to express what i'm feeling. hasn't necessarily made it better, but it has been almost therapeutic for me to get it all off my chest. sometimes posting on BB is enough, but sometimes i just need to spill it in a way that maybe wouldn't make sense if i posted here IYKWIM?

feel free to msg me if you want to chat - my yahoo/msn/email addy is in my profile - can't guarantee i'll reply straight away, but i'll definitely reply