It is sometimes so hard to be around everyone elses babies. I get to the stage where I get sick of being happy for them but one day I hope to be that happy till then I grin and bear it in public and behind closed doors and in my husbands arms I cry. Was at a wedding last night and it all hit me, so as we were dancing I was balling I want my life to change I want to be a mum and I want to be complete. Its so good knowing Im not alone though.