Hi Tissy and Welcome,
I definately know how you must be feeling after TTC for 10years myself. Everyone else so far has given you lots of useful info and I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone here being a real LT TTC. I have gone through several stages over the years with others being pg. There was the anger/rage stage (not pretty) The self pity stage, the Lets just forget it stage, the Lets do it again stage, the Why me stage... the list is endless. Just know that what you feel, be it any of these things or more, is NORMAL for your situation. Dont beat yourself up about feeling negative stuff. I think it is just part of the process of working through it all. Just do whatever you need to do to pick yourself up againg and move forward. And remember to come visit us here whenever you need to. Dont worry about how frequently you can get online or keeping up with personal messages, just pop in whenever you need and we promise to listen!!!
Good luck with your journey and I hope you get your very own BFP sooooon!
Hugs from SAZ