Janet I wish I had the answers for you.

A few things about the cycle I just did really made me feel positive.

It was my 1st cycle at my new clinic and my 1st stim cycle with my new FS. Not everyone needs to change these things, but mentally it helped as I had a lot of faith in my FS and clinic.

I also had a really good session with the counsellor before EPU and she asked me what I would do if I could never conceive myself...did we have a back up plan. I told her we didn't have a plan as that wasn't an option for us. I think that was a real turning point for me as my attitude changed and I just decided it WAS going to happen.

Also, I usually have acupuncture the day before TF and immediately after, but this time I had it immediately before and after.

My FS also recommends you DTD the night before TF as there is some chemical in sperm that can help the embie implant.

I really do think for most people though it is a numbers game. We were VERY lucky this cycle to get some amazing blasties and my embies and I went through a hell of a time with the OHSS. I was on morphine, had a drain in my stomach and was really not well, so I just think these 2 babies were really meant to be.

For me I kept going my desire to be a mother was above all else that I felt. Don't get me wrong...my journey was hard. I have 2 angel babies, lost a tube and was diagnosed with PCOS and endo. At times DH wanted me to have a break, but keeping on going was what kept me going (IYKWIM?)

My advice to you...follow your dreams and your heart my friend. You are an amazing, strong woman. You will get there. Just give yourself the time you need between attempts personally. Only you know what you can handle yourself.

I'm ALWAYS thinking of you and hoping all your dreams come true.

Stay strong...am always here to chat.

Big hugs Bel

xx