Hi all, haven't had a chance to catch up on personals, but am making my return to the thread It's been nice to take a couple of weeks away from thinking about all this stuff, but I guess it's time to throw myself back into it.

Had my Day 21 appt yesterday and picked up some drugs to start me off this cycle. We are trying an antagonist cycle with Orgalutran at my request. I hate Synarel with a passion so anything to get me out of sniffing the evil drug! We are also starting me at 150iu gonal-f, they wanted me to start at a lower amount but I am not willing to risk having my cycle cancelled again, have been through that too much.

Honestly, I don't think I'm ready to put myself through all of this again, but we are doing it anyway. Financially it makes sense to take as much advantage of the safety net as we can, so here we are. I'm just so scared of something else going wrong. I can deal with getting a negative result at the end of the cycle, just not all the stuff before that, understimulation, not making it to transfer.