Thanks everyone for your thoughts. I completely agree with all of you.
DH & I went out to dinner tonight and had a lengthy discussion about what we're going to do next. I will definitely be keeping my appt with my FS next Thursday. Even if I don't get any answers, I think I will be better off going to it than not. I would at least like to discuss with him the plans for my next cycle. If he wants us to do ICSI & do we still have to do a long-winded down reg cycle? I also want to discuss with him having 2 embryos put back if we manage to get to that stage this time. DH has always been for this, and I have been against it and have come around the last couple of months. We will be going into our 5th cycle, and although we have only gone to transfer twice, it all still costs a lot of money. We can't do it forever. It is such a strain financially and emotionally. DH refers to transferring 2 embies as the 2 for 1 deal . My FS unfortunately is against it apart from his older patients. So, I guess I have to come up with a good argument for him. Funny though, my first ever appt with him he seemed all for it.
DH revealed tonight that he thinks this failed cycle is his fault. His illness, all his painkillers and drugs he was on while in hospital. It definitely did effect his sample on Wednesday because they had trouble getting enough, but it upsets me that he feels he is to blame for this. We have been under so much stress in the last 6 weeks or so that it could have been a number of reasons. I guess I'm feeling a bit clearer after our chat and night out, and it's not as important that I find out why, but more important to find out how we are going to move forward and how my FS is going to get me a BFP!