Onja - I am so sorry to hear about your BFN. These things never get any easier.
I love your perspective on things and I will look forward to telling my children how special they are and how hard Mummy & Daddy fought for them to be with us.
Hi to everyone else and here's a little for you all.
Onja - you made me smile too! I love your attitude and hope that I can get a little of that vibe! I'm sorry that you got a negative answer. But like you say, dust yourself off and get back on it! I also love the though that our babies will be brought into this world with the most love and devotion anyone could offer & just a little different to anyone who is able to conceive naturally- you are so right!!!
I had BT this morning, nurse said she will know about 1.30pm but I asked her not to call until 3pm when she is close to finishing for the day. I just have way too much to deal with at work today to be dealing with this on top of it. But god can I not stop thinking about it!!!
Have been having period pain kind of feelings this morning.. not that I get a lot of that... please let it be something else!
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Nix - me too everything crossed. I really hope that you get the news you are waiting for. No AF is a great sign so far. I really admire your patience too at asking the nurse to wait.
Onja, so sorry to hear abour your BFN, but thanks for posting such an inspirational post. I will definitely be proud to tell my kids of our journey to bring them into this world
I'm scheduled in for my first ET tomorrow at 4pm. Initially I was hoping it would be in the morning so I could get it over and done with, but I figure it doesn't really matter when it is because i'm just going to be on edge for the next two weeks anyway waiting... The good thing about a later appointment is that I was able to book acupuncture appointments immediately before and after the ET, so hopefully that will do the trick.
Ladies - I hope everyone is feeling a little better. I must admit, I typed a long post about all the people I know who are also pg, and most of them effortlessly so, and how cross and upset I was about them all. You were saved another rant by my computer not allowing me to post for some reason, and I decided I didn't have the energy to retype as i'm trying to be as positive as I possibly can be. It was therapeutic at least to type it, even if I couldn't post.
So, i'm sending good vibes, and positive thoughts, and and and and i'm for all of u, and and anything else I can think of to help us along the way.
Onja: So sorry to read about your BFN Good to see your positive "bring it" attitude after such heartbreaking news. Upward and onward I say, no point dwelling on the past, time is better spent focusing on the next month. You have 1 frozen embie, will you try FET next month?
Nix: I don't think I could have waited until 3pm knowing the results were available at 1:30pm. that you get that BFP !!
Hello to everyone else - hope you are all going well in your cycles
AFM: Visited the nurse yesterday and got my IVF plan. I start synarel on the 18th Sept!
ME 35 DH 32 & 1 cheeky furbaby
TTC #1 Since Nov 07
IVF#1 - Aug/Sept - Start synarel on 18th Sept - early days for me!
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Onja - sorry about your confirmed BFN. Your attitude is fantastic though, so I commend you. I hope I can stay as positive as that.
Mummawannabe - thanks for the support. I know exactly how you feel. It's like we go through all this effort to stimulate our ovaries, and to not get the results we were hoping for hurts. Re the grading thing, I'm starting to wonder if I'm putting more pressure on myself for no good reason. I think there are heaps of girls out there who don't know what grading their embies are, but I'm such a control freak I have to know everything. I think I need to start thinking of it in terms of, the scientist say they're good enough to freeze, so their quality must be good enough too (otherwise they wouldn't freeze them). Good luck for your FET.
lise - good luck with your ET tomorrow. Hope it all goes off without a hitch.
Nix - I'm on the edge of my seat waiting to hear your results. Don't keep us in suspense.
melttc - great news that you can finally start your IVF journey. Good luck with it all.
Loops - I think you had your FS appointment today? Hope it went ok.
AFM - got my final embie results today. Another 6 blasties were frozen today (day 6 - so a little bit slower), so combined with the 2 blasties they froze yesterday (day 5), we got 8 blasties frozen from this cycle. I really shouldn't complain, because that's a pretty good result. We also still had 3 frozen from last stim cycle, so we actually have 11 blasties on ice now. So now I just have to hurry up and wait (since we all do that so well now), until I can do my FET in Oct/Nov.
Not sure how much I'll be posting in here over my break. The plan is that I actually do have a break from all things related to TTC, and in a way, that includes BellyBelly. I probably won't be able to help myself though, and may continue to sticky-beak in here to see how everyone's going. And then, come Oct, I'll be back, ready and raring to go for my FET. And I'll be keeping my positive hat on and believe with all my might that the next one will be the one for us.
Good luck to everyone and wishing you all lots of and
Sorry for the suspense - but it is a good sign of the great support in here!
No good news from me I'm afraid. It was a negative as I kind of thought it would be. Completely negative, nothing on the radar - never implanted. Was hard to take the news at work, nurse said she would know at 1.30pm and I asked her not to call til 3.30pm when she was ready to finish for the day. I still had so much to do from that point that I just went back to work, feeling numb, head still racing but didn't feel it enough to even cry.
She said that I have the choice of either waiting a month or going straight back into a natural FET cycle, but advised that I need to be aware that coming off a stim cycle your body can be a bit mucked up and we won't really know my cycle so well and know when I'm ovulating again. So what I gather is the only affect of that is that it will mean more BT's and US to find the exact time that I am ovulating so we then do an FET??
I said I was sure that we would go straight back as I don't want to have to wait any longer but said I would sleep on it and chat to DP.
Feeling sad, but not surprised, dissapointed and wish I knew WHY! But nurse said there is no particular reason - she said there is still a lot of luck involved and that it didn't mean it wasn't going to happen. She did say a negative on the first cycle is one of the hardest to take! I hope so - I don't want to feel like this again.
Anyway on my 3rd vodka and lucky I have a good man by my side who has cooked me dinner and is trying to keep me positive. Will allow myself to be sad tonight but try pick the chin up tomorrow and look forward!
I am relatively new to this site. Someone pointed me to this thread although I have only just started (4 months) ttc. I thought something was wrong because with my other children it was very quick. Got checked and my FSH is 32. Just found out this week. Doc says it's very high (menopausal or ovarian failure more likely) and pregnancy unlikely. I have started TCM with herbs and acupunture. Lady there says not to try for 3months while she sorts my body out. Anyone else had this experience?
Nix: Big to you hun. I'm so sorry to hear you got a negative result this cycle. Vodka is good for helping what ails ya GL with which ever way you decide to go next cycle. that your FET cycle is successful for you.
Nix, I'm sorry to hear your result was a BFN. I went straight into a natural FET after my first IVF and actually O'd a day earlier than my normal range (CD15 instead of CD16-18). But after my other 2 IVF cycles (higher dose of Puregon than the first cycle) I O'd around a week late. Also, when I was doing the FET my FS offered to put me on clomid to help make the cycle a bit more predictable, but I declined (clomid was a nightmare for me).
Kate, I don't have experience with the FSH issue (don't actually know what mine is - must talk to my FS about that), but I'm currently halfway through a 4 month wait for my next IVF at my acupuncturist's recommendation, so I understand that part. GL and I hope the TCM/acu helps!
Afm, I've been lurking and reading all of your posts ladies. I'm sending you all the baby dust and sticky vibes I have. I haven't been posting because a) I haven't had a lot to add to the discussions and b) there's nothing going on for me. We're still waiting to start IVF#4, probably at the end of October at this stage... In the meantime I'm wishing you all the best of luck.
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I have been TTC since July 2007... on and off... probably more off than on the past year! Unexplained, had mild endo removed in March which has helped my AF sooo much.
Anyway if I don't fall preg by end of year I will go for IVF.. of course I don't want too, I did have a psychic say I would fall spring this year, which is now... so here's hoping
It is so hard to talk to friends etc about this... i keep it all to myself and do get a bit sad, but I have started to ensure I live life to the full and not give up on anything and not stop planning things 'just incase'.
good luck to each and every one of you and look forward to 'getting to know you' all better
for you all.
for all of u, and 
and anything else I can think of to help us along the way.
ME 35 
DH 32 & 1 cheeky furbaby
Was hard to take the news at work, nurse said she would know at 1.30pm and I asked her not to call til 3.30pm when she was ready to finish for the day. I still had so much to do from that point that I just went back to work, feeling numb, head still racing but didn't feel it enough to even cry.
GL with which ever way you decide to go next cycle. 
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