I just finished reading the posts...
Firstly Welcome Numa,
Miss C, WOW girl what a post for Numa. I couldn't have said it any better and just wanted to tell you that your a true Gem and so supportive keep it up girl
Numa - I was reading your post and just wanted to tell you to never give up sweetie.
It's strange but I have always believed that things happen not only when you least expect them but also when you really need them.
I'm so sorry for what you have been through, you deserve not only to be happy but to be blessed with all the little babies you desire.
I have heard of the saying when there is a death you always hear of a birth.
You do deserve the miracle of a child, I actually asked myself the very same question and thought that maybe I haven't had one because I don't deserve one but you can never think like that, and it doesn't work that way because if it did then the people who don't want kids or really shouldn't have kids wouldn't end up being pregnant.
My very good friend from work she was going through some things and we stuck together and helped each other through some hard times, I think of her as a little sister as she's only 17 and I have just found out she is pregnant with TWINS and she's only 17 and been with her boyfriend for 3 months.
So please never question the unquestionable as it will do your head in babe.
I think of it this way, we are a little more prepared for it,going through everything we go through to have the little ones, I mean we have to go through so much to get pregnant and we are the one's who really appreciate it for what it is a"miracle" and don't take it for granted like so many people do.
Ivf is very scary but I find it very exciting as well, we just gota not give up and try not to focus on the bad or the impossible and know that one little embie will eventually get through
Everyone here is fantastic and were are here to listen honey.
Good luck and you have a special partner, and are lucky to have a beautiful love! Keep the posts coming were always here!

Sandi 28 & Andrew 28 together for 10 years
TTC 5 years
First IVF /ICSI feb/march 08= BFN
KEEPING ON GOING TILL THE END!!!!