kbudgie, please don't feel like you need to apologise. This is what we're here for. It is still very early days, hun. I was struggling for months after each of my m/c. My first was similar to yours in that we had been TTC for over 2 years and it was our first ever BFP. Even though I knew from the first b/t that I would probably m/c (low, slow rising numbers), it still hurt so much to eventually lose it. It was about 4 months before I could talk about it without full-on crying, and even then, my eyes would still mist up. And here I am a year after my second m/c and I'm still so angry and upset that DH and I were fighting yesterday too (okay, the PMS played a part too). You are not alone and it is very normal to feel this way so soon after it happens. Don't pressure yourself to "get over it" quickly, because it takes time. You wanted that bub so much and you worked so hard to get it - the grief of its loss won't evaporate overnight.
Mel, hi and welcome! I'm sorry to hear you've had such a difficult time recently. I hope that's the last of your misfortune for a long time. Please let me know when/if you would like to be added to the list. I just need to know where you are in your cycle (eg cycle day, dpo or just "waiting for AF").
Rai, I hope your wait isn't long and you can get started on your next cycle quickly.
Faye, I hope you don't have much longer to wait either. Any idea why it's so late? Hope you have a lovely holiday!
Beau, FX for Wednesday!
AFM, AF is playing silly buggers. I had a light bleed last night (12dpo), but nothing this morning. AF is actually due tomorrow, but turning up last night wasn't outside the realm of possibility (24-36 hours early). I know what I'd be thinking if I read this, but the bleed was red, so I'm pretty sure it wasn't implantation. I really don't know what else could cause that to happen though? Any ideas? I'm just going to wait it out and see what happens today. It might just be a brief respite and AF could get started properly this afternoon/evening. My temp was down again this morning, so I'm not expecting any miracles. I just wish I wasn't dealing with this uncertainty with the anniversary of learning of our mm/c tomorrow (I have always felt the day we found out was the day we lost her, rather than the d&c 4 days later, not that the anniversary of the d&c will be a fun day either). Or maybe this is trying to distract me from it? Ugh, I just want to crawl under a rock for the next 5 days...
It is still very early days, hun. I was struggling for months after each of my m/c. My first was similar to yours in that we had been TTC for over 2 years and it was our first ever BFP. Even though I knew from the first b/t that I would probably m/c (low, slow rising numbers), it still hurt so much to eventually lose it. It was about 4 months before I could talk about it without full-on crying, and even then, my eyes would still mist up. And here I am a year after my second m/c and I'm still so angry and upset that DH and I were fighting yesterday too (okay, the PMS played a part too). You are not alone and it is very normal to feel this way so soon after it happens. Don't pressure yourself to "get over it" quickly, because it takes time. You wanted that bub so much and you worked so hard to get it - the grief of its loss won't evaporate overnight.
I'm sorry to hear you've had such a difficult time recently. I hope that's the last of your misfortune for a long time. Please let me know when/if you would like to be added to the list. I just need to know where you are in your cycle (eg cycle day, dpo or just "waiting for AF").
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