No I havent told anyone! Only my mum knows. I do feel though that I am really starting to isolate myself a lot more because to be honest I feel and I know this is really silly and I cant believe Im saying it- embarrased! I feel embarassed that everyone must be looking and talking about poor me. They do know that I had a small op, so they obviosly know that Ive been trying so I kind of dont want to be faced with the possibility of having to talk about it! I cry myself to sleep most nights because not only did I have something wrong with me (mild endo) but now weve discovered my DH has low morph and low DNA frag- every test we do it keeps getting worse and worse and i feel my dream keeps moving further away. So its been really tough for me and my DH and to be honest Im not coping all that well, Im very emotional and snappy and unsociable! I look around at all my friends and there problems and i think -if only you knew what im going through!
Anyway Ive poored my little heart out! I feel a bit better now!
Hugs to you love, I feel for you. Thank you for sharing how you feel, a lot of what you wrote I feel too. I know what you mean about being embarrassed, I am the same. I know it's crazy, but I'm embarrassed that I can't do what everyone else around me can (well that's how it feels). I bought "Swimming Upstream" and I can highly recommend it - it may help you too. I haven't read much, but what I have read is great!! I'm also isolating myself from friends & family, I just feel like everyone is thinking poor me too. I know I'm thinking poor me most of the time! I'm sorry you feel so bad, and I wish there was something I could do to help. Please try to find some comfort in the fact that you are working towards your goal - I know it's hard, but we have to try!
I'm sorry I can't write more, I have to run out the door for the weekend, but I will write on Monday. I hope you have a wonderful weekend and will chat more later.
Try to keep your chin up, and I'll try to keep mine up too!
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