Chez hun - the others completely right - please don't try to minimise what you're feeling because of what others have been through! we're all at different points in our journey and no one is going to think anything nasty about you for venting when things aren't going to plan!!! we all have good days - and we DEFINITELY have bad days - and we're most certainly not "fair weather" friends! we're here for you through the good and the bad.

you have every right to feel emotional at the moment - as Holly has said, you have so much more going on than just the AC drugs at the moment, and that would mess with your emotions no matter what your body was doing with the drugs!!

i just want to send you the bestest of wishes for tomorrow - talk to the doctor about what s/he thinks will give ou the best chances of success - and then go for it! hugs hun - you deserve for this to happen!