CatyO you must be devastated there are just no words to tell you how sorry I am its so unfair, sometimes I hate ttc it can truly suck. take your time but please let us know how you are.
sending lots of hugs xxxxx
CatyO you must be devastated there are just no words to tell you how sorry I am its so unfair, sometimes I hate ttc it can truly suck. take your time but please let us know how you are.
sending lots of hugs xxxxx
So sorry CatyO. That is just so unfair. Sending you hugs Hun. Have a good cry, wait a while & when you feel strong again have another crack. I'm here if you need to winge. Take care of yourself xx
CatyO- So sorry it was not better news for you honey. This journey can be so hard and cruel sometimes.. Massive hugs X
Beau- I will be stalking tomorrow. Things are looking positive X
Juniper- Yay for being in the TWW.. Everything is tightly crossed for you X
MyTurn- Sorry your having such a dodgy day..
AFM- The lab called and my news was better than I had expected! Our little Morula from yesterday is a perfect looking blast today and has been frozen. We also had a second blast with some fragmentation so the lab has frozen it too but said it may be less likely to Freeze/thaw ok or result in a successful pregnancy.
We have 2 embryos that had jumped from 8 cells yesterday to Morula today so they will keep them one more night and see where they are at tomorrow.
My FS has bought my scan forward to Friday to check my lining as since increasing my Progynova I haven't had bleeding for 5 days!!
Catyo, I am so sorry to hear that, I know it takes time to recover emotionally. Please don't give up and we really need to be physically and emotionally strong for doing this. Have a good rest and take care.
Juniper- thanks for telling me this. I hope your egg quality will be improved by taking Melatonin. I had a few days bad sleep, hard to fall sleep and easy to wake up and in the afternoon I felt much tried. I read Melatonin's side effect today, it says the restlessness insomnia is one of the uncommon side effects. I hope it is not Melatonin affects me , it maybe I stop taking Progynova and Pessaries and my hormone level dropped and it affects me because my period came today which is three days later after I stop the medication. I have very short period cycle 21 days. I think these different kinds of the hormone affects my nerves but I still want to take it to improve my egg quality. I used to be a good sleeper, but when I start doing the cycle my sleep quality is up and down. I will have a meeting with my nurse tomorrow and I will double check with her.
Oh, CatyO, I'm so sorry, hun. It's just not fair to start so well and then end so quickly. You're always welcome to stick around if you'll be TTC naturally while you wait for a new IVF. I've removed you from the list as requested, so just let me know when you want to be re-added.
Jasmine, that's fabulous news!!
Bestrong, to be honest, that's what last night was like for me - restless. I had to get up at 5:30am for the IUI, so was very frustrated. I went to bed at 11:30pm (an hour later than planned), but didn't get any proper sleep until 1:30am and then woke at 4:30am. I have to say though, that's not the norm. I usually sleep like a log with the melatonin; it's just the occasional night that's restless. And I've been taking my prednisone at lunchtime lately (long story, but that's been the first meal of the day) and that can cause restlessness, so I think that's the more likely culprit, to be honest. Will be interesting to see how I sleep tonight after taking my prednisone nice and early today (had breakfast at the cafe downstairs while waiting for the IUI).
As I left work today another girl told me she is 12 weeks pregnant (that's 2 in the last week). It was her 4th time of ivf. I am happy for her but my first reaction was 'when is it my turn?'. Hopefully tomorrow but then I know it's a long way to get to 12 weeks. If the result is positive tomorrow I am so scared of miscarrying again.
Thanks ladies, I am actually feeling better than I was last Friday. Last Friday when they told me that the hcg didn't double, I knew there was something wrong and I had a good cry, Saturday had a good cry too and yesterday I picked all my pieces up and thought "that's it, I can't do anything but just to pray for a miracle (like someone of you says on your signature, sorry I cant remember who...). Anyway I left everything in God's hands, after all man proposes, God disposes...
Today when I got the call from the clinic and they told me the bad news, I just thought "pfffttt ok" of course I felt bad, but didn't feel like having another big loud cry. I guess I will have the cry when AF arrives as the nurse said I should expect to have a very painful period this time and that really scares me, as I am not familiar with painful periods at all, she even said that if it gets too bad to go the emergency department of the hospital???? Now, that scares me...
Juniper, I will let you know when AF arrives, so you add to the list on CD1, I think I will try to get pregnant naturally for a few months, but I don't think that will happen, if has not happened in nearly 2 years. I don't know when I will think in having a FET, which the nurse surprised me when she said I had 2 frozen embryos, I thought I had only one... she said the fourth one, was the one that didn't make it, I guess I was so excited about having a transfer that didn't really listen what they said. So, of 4 eggs, I got 3 embryos, is not that bad.
Well what can I say, it was my first IVF and even that didn't, it went very smooth, hubby gave me the injections which didn't hurt, just a bit itchy the first time, I didn't feel any mood swings, no pain, just a bit bloated, but just like when I abuse of popcorn... I thought if I get pregnant in this IVF it will be like "My God I am pregnant and I didn't even participate" if felt so alien, if that makes sense.
Buying hpt is something new for me, as I only bought a pregnancy test the last cycle and this one, I always get my period every 31 days like a clock work, and I have bought every month is the digital ovulation test and every month I ovulate on day 17, at least for the last 16 months, and never had a missed period until last cycle, I missed my period for 6 days and on day 36 of my cycle I bought a hpt and it came positive, the second line wasn't as dark as the other. The nurse called me to ask why I still didn't call to book my IVF and I told her I was missing my period and she asked if I could be pregnant and I told her about the hpt, she asked me to wait 2 more days and if still AF didn't arrive, go to the clinic for a bt, but AF arrived the next day and I called to book my IVF.
CatyO, would you like me to add you back on the list now with your little angel until CD1?
As for the (potentially) painful AF, when I had my chem pg (5w4d), the first 4 hours were quite bad. I normally have painful AFs (thanks to my endo), but these were twice as bad as normal (and that's saying something). But after those few hours, I passed what I assume was the sac and after that the pain was minimal. It's not the same for everyone and having a plan in place to go to the ER if you do have a lot of pain might be enough of a safety net to not need to go. It never occurred to me to go to hospital with my chem pg, but I was given the same instruction while waiting for my d&c (go to the ER if I started bleeding before the d&c). The hospital can't do anything other than pain management, but that can be a big help if it's bad.
And don't count yourself out on a natural BFP. We had been TTC 2.75 years and done 6 IUI, 3 IVF and 1 FET (all BFN) before getting our first ever BFP (the chem pg) and it was a natural conception. Stranger things have happened...
Funny you say that Emma, I'm feeling anxious about all mine this time too... I don't want to waste them, and if I haven't lost a reasonable amount of weight I'm not sure ill be ready, but I haven't got the time to sit around waiting either... Sigh... Why can't it just drop off by itself....
Thanks girls. I went to choir tonight and it was nice to get out and just forget about things. Its still sitting there, but its kind of lost a bit of its sting. Here's hoping a busy day tomorrow, including an acupuncture session will help
After the call with the nurse I thought to cook myself a very nice and juicy steak with veggies, so I did it and put the plate on the table, went to the toilet and when I came back I had a very happy puppy, really enjoying my steak... then I started crying lol
I think this has affected hubby more than we thought it would. He said "don't worry, we will try again, whenever you are ready, anyway the worst that can happen is that it doesn't work" Bless him!! I couldn't help it but laugh...
My turn I had been trying to lose some weight for the last year and I couldn't. I don't really need to l This cycle I lost 3 kilos, and I wasn't even trying to lose weight, perhaps because I wasn't focused on losing weight, I guess because I was eating healthy, and I was having the heavy meal for breakfast and lunch, and just a veggie soup or something light light for dinner.
I think going to the movies tomorrow will help, some distraction, perhaps going out for dinner will be good and that way I can have a juicy steak, lol
Caty, I'm so sorry sweetheart. Sounds like you have a very supportive hubby there, God bless him. Together you'll get through it
Beau, FX for tomorrow
Jasmine, yay for the embies doing so well! You must be very pleased hun
Rai, GL with your IUI
Juniper, GL to you too honey, I hope you've caught that eggie
Myturn, big hugs hun. I hope you're feeling a bit more optimistic now xx
Hi Bestrong, Emma, Joe and everyone else
I went to the doc and she gave me the antibiotics for my stingy pee, hopefully it will improve soon. Just feeling tired and flat today, it's just Monday....hohum. Yesterday we lost our car/house keys, they have just disappeared, I have turned our wee house upside down, that's probably why I'm so tired.
Thank you Emma & Miss.B
Miss.B, have you tried Apple cider vinegar? works very good for that, it helps to balance the acidity. I have 2 spoons in half glass of water. I get the organic (unfiltered) I have it very often as it helps to detox the liver and other things.
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