Firstly, I just want to say a big congrats to Megan & Kim, and Sammi Jane. It always makes me feel a bit better when I hear of a BFP in here.

Now, I want to apologise for what is probably going to be a post all about me me me!
I have just come off a 37 day cycle and managed a 14 day LP....whether that is because of what happened last month or not I don't know. Anyway, AF arrived yesterday and it's been so bad it has forced me into 1.5 days off work. I came home early yesterday and still felt like crap this morning so called in sick. I now feel really lethargic, and have an upset tummy and generally feel sad.
I hate this person I have become. I feel so sad all the time, have been crying over stupid little things and feel like a failure. When I told DH last night that I felt like a failure he just got annoyed with me and told me I was being silly. As much as he also wants a baby, I feel like he doesn't really get it or understand me at the moment.
Now, we have our house on the market to make things easier for us to continue with IVF. Rent is so much cheaper than our mortgage so we will be able to save more. I am actually beginning to feel like I can't continue to work while doing all of this. I have never been one to take time off work sick and when I do I feel so guilty, and that certainly isn't helping me at all. I just feel so trapped at the moment and don't know what to do. We are having a break from IVF for a couple of months and I have just come off a natural cycle which I thought would have been easier on me. Unfortunately it wasn't....obviously at the back of my mind I thought a miracle could happen.
I have managed to keep myself together through all of this for so long and now I feel like I am am starting to fall apart at the seams.