Hi all,
Ellie, you are an amazing person. I hope i can show and ounce of the strength you have over this journey.

BG - ekk - i hope you don't get any more OHSS syptoms and take care of yourself this weekend.

Well you can read on if you are bored - here goes my story...
FS says that there are 3 possible explanations for my hideous last cycle. 1 - it was a random blip (think BW's law of probability explanation to Mel). 2 - my body hates the drugs (think BG and the synarel problems). 3 - i have bad eggs.
So we are going to work through the options in that order. First i do another full Stim cycle with down reg, just like last time. If it was just a random unlucky cycle, then hopefully the next one goes better. If not, we move to option 2 in which case we try a flare cycle - nice and short, no pill, no synarel (like you Lou?). If this does not work, then we move to the dreaded option 3. Not sure whether i'll cope with the option of 'bad eggs'. Ahh well, one step at a time. I am considering myself very lucky that i am getting to move straight on to the down reg part of the cycle straight after the last stim cycle.
I asked FS about the ICSI possibly damaging the embryos, but is apparently not an issue anymore these days.
I asked also why i appear to be on a low dose of GonalF compared to others. He said this is because he would put a PCOS person on a higher dose as PCOS can negatively affect egg quality. Therefore if they use a higher dose, they get more eggs, and hopefully in the end the same number of good quality eggs. He said my age (even if i feel old!!), my previous history of response to Clomid and the last GonalF cycle, and the fact that my endo is almost all gone, should mean i have the same result from a lower dose than other's have with a higher dose. I hope that made sense. It has taught me not to compare myself with everyone else all the time!
He also told me if i want to i can use Lucrin instead of Synarel. I haven't decided yet. I know Synarel works (maybe too well!) but i hate the nasal spray. I'd rather inject myself, but I am scared to try something new, in case the cycle is a bust again, then i'll blame myself for messing with it.

Well, that was a long long story. I just needed to share with people that understand. It would sound like mumbo-jumbo to anyone else!!

Wishing everyone a great weekend.
Jo