negative rant warning !!!!!
cuddlepie: thanks for your encouragement
mrsP: hugs to you
luvabub: good luck with EPU, hope it goes well
wishbaby: hope bt gives good results
smithy: good luck with your EPU and twins !:crossfingers:
afm: i am just having one of those days today !! i have had a bit of brown spotting so i did a test, i know it's early but tomorrow would be day 28 and i am usually really regular. anyway you'd think if there was a chance it would show up on a test 1 day before af was due ?????????:wall:
well it was BFN and now i feel even crappier and dh has had a chat with me and said he's not doing it again and if i don't get BFP with one of our 3 embies left then " TOO BAD" he said i've had the chance and thats it. it's too stressfull for him. what the heck !!!!!!
i'm the one who's doing all the jabbing and has to do the TWW and go thru the heartache of IVF.
sorry for this i just feel so empty and now i've been all teary.
keep smiling ;)
I'm new to BB and starting first IVF - need support!
Hi girls-
I hope this is the right place to post - it's taken me ages to find this part of BB. I haven't been posting long on BB, but have been lurking around. I feel like I know some of you already, even though I haven't been part of your stories.
A bit about me:
I am 29 and DH is 31 and we have been TTC#1 since May 2004. We saw a FS in September who diagnosed me with Endometriosis, did the laproscopic surgery, and has now got us starting IVF (today is day 2 - one nasal spray down). The reason we had to wait to see an FS was because we've been living in the States for 6 years, and only moved back in December 07. Can I just mention how lucky we are to be going through IVF in Australia - in Seattle it cost $14,000+/cycle with no rebates or government assistance. That just blows my mind. Anyway, without fertility support we had to wait till we came home.
After much talking, thinking, crying, we are so excited to be starting this journey together. We have only told our parents and my siblings, and I have told my boss and one co-worker who went through IVF two years ago (and is now pregnant naturally with #2!). At this point I think the most difficult thing for me will be to not worry, stay calm and relaxed, and let things happen. I am a planner and a worrier, but I understand that that's not the way to get through IVF and come out with a BFP. We are moving in 2 weeks to a house which is beautiful, and we are hoping that it will be a place where we can relax, spend time with each other and close friends and family, and conceive. I am also starting yoga in 2 weeks.
So basically I just wanted to pop in and say hi. It's been so nice to have the support of the BB girls in other areas that I've posted, and am hoping my support will help others too.
My husband's friend's wife (notice I didn't say a friend of mine!) has been pretty horrible and insensitive to me during the past 4.5 years of TTC (knowing that we were TTC, she'd say things like "I don't know what's wrong with these people who can't get pregnant, what are they doing wrong, I don't understand it"... TO MY FACE!!), and has since conceived herself and is now pg with #2 (and is no less insensitive). I have to cut myself off from her a bit as we start IVF. She upsets me and makes me too angry, and I can't surround myself with people like that at the moment. Another friend of mine has just been through her own medical journey (not TTC related), and said to me yesterday that she and her husband entered a journey together, and she didn't want or expect to be the sam person when she came out of it. She said that while the road was tough, there are so many positive things that she and her husband learned about each other and about life together, and they value being able to go through the journey together, and appreciate who they've become at the end. Thinking about that helps me to be strong and positive!
Anyway, back to today - the laundry still has to be done.
Thinking of you girls and hoping for BFPs for all of us!