willow - so sorry you're struggling at the moment. i know it's hard when you're thrown a curve ball, but i'm sure your FS is doing what he needs to - i'm wondering if maybe he's started you on a lower dose just to check your response to it all? i know sometimes a meltdown seems like the worst thing to happen - but i find that if i don't let it all out occassionally, i start going nuts (i'm so glad DH is massively supportive when they happen!)

TwoMums - i'm glad you got clarification of what your doc was talking about yesterday - at least you now have a clear pic of what he's looking at doing for you for treatment. Good luck with it all!

BW - WOW - you sound so much happier today - that's awesome - i'm glad things are looking up for you!

As for the sniping on the other forums - what's the point? i think you get so much more out of a supportive environment! if you're so opinionated that no one else is allowed their own point of view, you're not really the kind of person others want to talk to anyway!! i'm so glad everyone i've encountered so far on BB has been so welcoming and good natured.

as for me - i definitely think it was just work getting to me yesterday - not the spray. felt fine last night after taking it, then crook again today. everything at work has come to a head the last two days, so i'm a little freaked out by it all - i put in a formal complaint about one of my managers - and got feedback that she's to receive a written warning and further privacy breaches may result in loss of her job - i'm happy that they've taken me seriously in my issues, but dreading the fallout when it all hits the fan next week! feeling pretty ok tonight - no work for a couple of days now (well, i still have to paint, but that's not really work....!) - yay!!