Bei Bei & BW - it is 18 months since we lost our second angel - and even though i'm actively cycling with the dream of being pregnant again soon, right now, my focus is on the process of "getting" pregnant, not "being" pregnant, because the fear is still very real. it is understandable that waiting is easier - you know that waiting doesn't increase the pain or the fear - it's something that you know how to do, and you know how to deal with it eavery day - hell, it's pretty much the norm isn't it? you will, as time goes by, come to a point where you have all the answers you can get, you are armed with the knowledge and the confidence to take that next step and try again - but until that day, don't beat up on yourselves for feeling fearful. your wounds are still very raw - give yourself time to heal - and one day that healing will have taken you down that path to being ready again

take care lovely ladies.

BG