thanks for thinking of me girls, camping in 2 weeks or less (when DH makes up his mind!!!) so hopefully AF just comes early and is over with by the time we leave.

I'm not "feeling" this cycle, 100% sure it will be another big fat nothing and just want it over with!

too much other stuff on my plate at the moment, Wednesday next week is 8 years since i called my dad to tell him he would be a poppy again and two days later i found out he hung himself that night, 8 years ago I started spotting at the funeral and it was all over a week later.

just want to crawl back into the cave!

My first mc never really effected me, so I could never relate to the "you always reemmber the first/its the worst" stuff everything says, i had too much other stuff going on to care about it but now I'm feeling guilty, its like delayed grief if there is such a thing.