Congrats Porsche!! And love the new avvy (you're clever designing it yourself!) Wow, 9 embies, that's terrific and sending you lots of and and crossing fingers that you have your BFP close! Good luck with the TWW - shame Crafty isn't around to help you with it but HappyBaby is here so girls, go crazy, you have our full permission!!
HappyBaby, good to see you back again (not in the LTTTC way but in the happy to see your name way IYKWIM!). And good luck to you too for the TWW. I don't remember having to have a full bladder for the ET either and like Saffy, I'm really bad at it, it just gets so painful to hold on for that long.
Hi T-hopes (you're next lovely) and everyone else.
MatthewsMum, lovely to have you back too.
AFM well I feel like I am at war with everyone I love inside my head (except DH for some reason LOL) so I know I'm having some issues with our EDD and loss earlier this year. I guess anger is all part of the grief process, just took me a while to realise that was how it was coming out. Everything just feels so damn unfair and I hate being in that 'feel sorry for me' frame of mind 'cause it just gets me nowhere. Hoping some of it was also PMT. Anyway, busy cleaning and cooking today (another group of friends wanting to do Christmas in July are coming tomorrow even though I don't feel very sociable) so better get back to it. Have a good weekend everyone, rest up and be kind to yourselves and hopefully enjoy some sunshine. It's a beautiful day up in the mountains today.
Ferrals - I'm so happy to hear your scan was great. I wonder if it will be the little dark haired baby girl I saw in my dream. I hope you are able to sit back and relax now and stay positive for the 12 week test. Sending heaps of happy healthy vibes.
Posrche - I realy hope your little embies snugggle in good. Big hugs. Love the avvy.
Possum - Lovely to see your name pop up I really hope you will join us I've missed you.
Alice - I'm sorry to hear you are not feeling very chirpy right now. I hate getting in the 'poor me' rut too, but the fact is it is unfair and it does suck and we have a right to feel ****ty about all this. I hope your social weekend lifts your spirits and gives you happier things to think about.
AFM - Well I had a grest session with the counsellor yesterday and feel I will face my next BFP with a better outlook. She is also going to work on an affirmation for me to help me think more positively once I'm pg again.
I saw FS today and he is going to give me everything I asked for, he is willing to do all he can to help the next one stick knowing that it will be my last try. We talked all thorough the possible outcomes that might arise from doing the IVF and the better understanding we will have of the quality of my eggs, ability of the sperm etc. He answered all my questions very thoroughly and I was with him a whole half hour, and then . . . the lovely man bulk billed me for the appointment. Could he be more wonderful?
Porsche-love the avvy and congratz on your embie TF my fingers are crossed that one or both stick.
Alice-been there and felt like that many times after losing Abbi and when ttc it is not a good feeling seems to be worse when AF is near hope you feel better soon.
Sunbeam-funny you say that i have had a few dreams of DH in the bath with a dark haired newborn but i dont know how that can happen as all my kids have been born bald and DH daughter was born bald also and all our kids had blonde hair when it did grow except my oldest he had mousey brown so i expect this baby to be bald as and blonde also.
I am sort of taking it easy waiting for our test some days i feel real confident that this bub is fine then all of a sudden i think OMG! what if i get the news i am terrified of how can i start all over again and now i am thinking what if i get to the 12 week scan and there is no heart beat there has been so many ladies of late that have had bad news.
I just have to put on a brave face and keep going my whole family is on tender hooks waiting for these results i feel the pressure i hope i dont let them down.
And how are you have you got any results back yet i hope they can give you some answers so the next bub will be ok.
AFM- i am just in limbo can't get excited can't buy anything can't plan ahead i told myself i would not think about this bub to much so i wouldnt get my hopes up and get to attached until i know everything is ok but i have not succeeded i can't lose this baby he/she needs to be healthy i can't do this again i have 4 more weeks to wait it will get worse the closer i get i wish i can just sleep for the next 4 weeks.
Sorry to rave have a good weekend.
I wanted to add too that we don't get the genetic test results back till next week. I have no other tests to have as FS has agreed to treat me with aspirin, antibiotics and immuno suppressants anyway even though none of my tests suggest I need them. I never had the NK cells test but given that he's medicating me for it I guess it's one more test I'm saved from. He seemed to think if NK cells was my problem that I would not be getting to 7 weeks but I'm sure some of the other ladies who tested positive were getting that far so I'm just so happy he's agreed to the medication. FS also agreed to me skipping the BCP as we only have till the end of the year to do IVF (while we can afford it before my medicare cap resets and it goes from $1000 back to $8000 a go). As AF won't be here till mid sept we will only have 3 1/2 months. A good BFP would be a great end to a very difficult year.
Ferrals, I hope the four weeks goes quickly for you. I imagine that everything you are going through is very normal considering the loss you have had but just wanted to say that I'm sure your family never feel that you have let them down and you shouldn't feel that you have either, though I understand where that comes from. So far everything sounds positive with this bub so try to stay focused on the things you know now and not wonder too much into the future. I'm hoping and praying that everything will be fine with this bub for you and after the next few tests you can enjoy your pregnancy and start planning. Are you going to find out the sex? x
Sunbeam, I'm glad you had a good chat with the FS and covered everything that you wanted to - he sounds very compassionate and supportive. I don't really know much about the NK cells but I do know MurrayCod is continuing with some of the meds (though not sure if this stopped after 12 weeks or not? Maybe PM her?)(Hello MurrayCod if you are reading ) Bummer your medicare cap doesn't reset on the financial year instead of the calendar year - I hope too that your year ends on a high, you deserve it after so much loss. x
Porsche, T-hopes, HappyBaby, Crafty - how're your TWWs going? I hope you are all feeling well and that your bubs are sticking tight to you all
Saffy, have you started your injections??
Mildez, hanging for your news this week and hoping that all is wonderfully well for you and this bub is growing healthy and strong x
Sevie - what's happening with you? We haven't heard from you in ages.
MatthewsMum - when do you start your next TF?
Hi to anyone I have missed.
AFM well I have fallen into a black hole over the weekend despite having a lovely day with my friends and their kids on Saturday. I have a lot of close friends going through difficult times and I seem to be the shoulder everyone is crying on and I'm finding it a bit hard to be honest. Last night I just ended up in tears myself and this morning I feel a bit bruised by it all. Just want to hide for a while. One couple have a 4 month old and were with me when I got my BFP last December - they are splitting up after he learned she had an affair for her entire pregnancy. I was shocked to be honest, 'cause being pg made me feel very close to my DH so I just can't imagine doing what she did - it seems so cruel to do that to her DH. He has to move out so he's lost his wife, baby and home in one fell swoop. First she rang then he rang (they live OS) and it is just such a mess. I feel angry that she had the chance to have a family with her DH and then blew it - what I would do to have that opportunity and she's squandered it (and it was assisted conception so it's not like she just fell pg by accident and had the affair - somehow that just makes it worse for me). It is hard to bear with our due date approaching - I don't think I can talk to them for a little while. Sorry for the vent but just need to get this out - can't stop thinking about it. Anyway, AF is nearly over and I took the first BCP today so after the false start we are on our way. I know I have to keep positive and well for this cycle so I will try go for a walk later and let some of it go. Thanks for listening x
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Hi ladies-hope everyone had a good, relaxing weekend!
Sunbeam- your Fs sounds very supportive and I'm glad he is throwing everything at you so to speak. I'm sure you will be pregnant before the end of the year. Hope you are taking it easy, is it nice to have your flatmate back?
Alice-did you make it through the weekend ok? Hope you are feeling better this week. I often find I dread social events and then when i get there, get right into the swing of it and enjoy myself ( depends on the amount of baby talk though!)
Porsche- How is Mrs PUPO going? Are you going to test before the blood test? Hope your TWW is passing quickly xx
Ferals-Its normal to feel like that, such a hard journey and I hope the 4 weeks go quickly with a good result at the end, it would be impossible not to get attached to the little one inside you, especially after seeing bub on the scan xx
Mildez- how is anything going for you? Hope things are good sticky vibes to you x
Hi to Possummagic,THopes, Happybaby, Matthewsmum, babydust to allxx
Afm-now sniffing since yesterday, made me dizzy this morning I think but oh well. DH and I are going away down the coast this weekend I can't wait, it will be relaxing. Had a little meltdown last night cos one of the furbabies went missing for 24hrs, and i spent about 3 hours solid crying ( it was freezing, rainy and dark outside and I knew he hadn't eaten for over 24hrs, also he has no street smarts at all and is a mummy's boy) so later that night he marches back inside but is very freaked out and paranoid so god knows what happened to him, at least he is home. I may have overreacted with my crying but i was overdue for a good session anyway lol.
Alice-sorry to hear about your friends it must have been a shock and trying to understand how she could do that to her DH while pregnant i guess you will never understand and we all have a opinions for things people do in their lives and until you walk in there shoes i guess you will never really understand how or why they do the things they do i have friends who have blown me away with some lifestye choices and i still dont get it but i respect there choices and just pretend to understand it isnt easy.
And hell yeh! i will find out the bubs sex as soon as the cvs results are in.
Saffy-i would die if one of my furbabies went missing i glad your little one came home my two do not go outside they dont have enough hair to go outside they would freeze in winter and fry in summer so they have lots of toys and scratching posts to keep them amused indoors.
Sunbeam-how you going sweetness hope you are well i am looking forward to seeing you get some answers and your next BFP is a keeper.
AFM- waiting waiting waiting this is killing me 28 days to go.
Thanks for asking about me. Ive cancelled my scan for now and I'll see what the Dr says tomorrow about when to rebook it. I was having it Wednesday but the sonographer said not to as its still too early and the might not see anymore. She said she would prefer it done after 7weeks but just not sure if the Dr will want me to go that long as if it is ectopic (I dont think it is) then it could rupture before that time. I am hevaing alot. 9times so far in an hr. Ive never had that before so I am clinging on to hope that its a fantastic sign the HCG is rising nicely. I'll let you know what the Gyno says tomorrow. I think its still a wait but right now I dont want to know. I just want to be happy and pretend everything is perfect. Its weird I suddenly dont want answers as I always have needed to know. Denial maybe. And then fear if everything is right I'm putting myself at risk with multiple dildocam scans.
ALice I am so sorry to hear your feeling blurr. I can completely understand how you feel towards your old friend throwing everything away by having the affair. I would feel exactly the same.
Saffy I am so pleased to here your furr baby returned. Hopefully he wont do it again anytime soon if he got a fright. Hope the weekend comes quick and you have a lovely time away with your DH.
Hi everyone. I finally feel up to popping in again. Sometimes the grief is so bad I can't even bring myself to read the updates. But today is a good day so far.
Alice - that's awful about your friends. I mean who has an affair whilst pregnant? What a horrible situation. Fingers crossed for a healthy lead up to your cycle.
Saffy - I too would die if my furbaby went missing. She keeps me sane. In fact everytime I get a BFP and it doesn't survive I know instantly as she follows me around meowing at my feet incessantly, and sure enough at the next scan I get the awful news.
Sunbeam - pls PM me. I would love to chat with you about your FS and further tests etc.
Ferrals - best of luck with next scan.
AFM - my FS made me wait 2 weeks to see if I miscarried naturally before performing a D&C. So since I have not miscarried I am going in tomorrow to have it removed. Been feeling so sick and toxic. I have found an amazing General Physician on the Gold Coast who is performing all sorts of rare tests to see if there is something else going on that is making me lose my embies at 6 -8 weeks everytime. Also my FS is running genetic testing on me and DH (for the 1st time in 2 years!!!). Given my age you think he would have done this from the beginning. We have one left in the freezer and one more stim cycle in us, and that will be it for us. We are seriously considering changing FS for next cycle.......
Alice- sorry I missed your post, we must have written at the same time That is unbelievable about your friend, so hard to have to speak to both of them too, I would feel the same way as you do. Its not fair that you are having to take the burden of everyone;s problems, you have to be concentrating on being the relaxed beautiful person you are, not worrying about everyone else. Take your phone off the hook please! Try and start this week afresh and concentrate on your upcoming cycle.
Mildez- sounding good with the heaving! What a wait though, I'm getting more confident you will be there at 7 weeks having your scan FX xxx
Mindhugs-best of luck for tomorrow sorry it had to come to that. I agree with changing FS, have heard of many people getting lucky after changing to another FS. Hope you get some answers anyway xx
me- off to acupuncture, it is getting more "intense" shall we say as the cycle gets nearer, I am actually starting to get apprehensive just before she puts the needles in, esp the one in my L wrist- yikes! wish me luck!
Mindhugs, good luck for tomorrow - I know it's going to be a tough day for you, I hope you will have someone with you to take care of you. Rest up and be gentle with yourself. The new GP sounds promising - it's so important to feel you have covered all bases and if you don't feel your FS is supporting you then I agree look for someone else. It's crap getting older when you're still looking for your BFP and a baby to bring home to love. I hope, like Sunbeam, your baby is getting closer.
Saffy, I would be exactly the same if any of my animals went missing (can't call them fur babies 'cause they have feathers but love them just as much!). Sometimes a good howl helps hey? I hope you have a great weekend away x
Ferrals, It's hard for me not to judge her but I know where it is coming from and I don't show any of it to her as we are close friends and I love her dearly which is what makes it more difficult. Things weren't great in their relationship I just wish they hadn't brought a baby into this mess. The guy she is seeing has a 2 year old and a 4 year old as well - and I can't help feeling sorry for the kids is all.
Mildez, let us know how you go tomorrow at the gynie - are you still in any pain? Other symptoms sound strong so fingers crossed all works out well for you.
Well I'd better get some work done - been avoiding all morning. Have a good day everyone and Possum, I'm sorry to miss you before, I hope you are OK x
Thanks for asking aout me. To be honest I feel like crap. I'm nauseas all the time. And it's an effort to eat as I know it will make me feel worse. I can't wait until the TWW is up. I have to ring today and see if we have any embies to freeze. Also my tummy seems to have expanded a little. I'm feeling very unattractive to say the least lol. Not feeling hopeful actually. Does anyone know when a 3 day embie will implant? My temps are not doing the "norm" for me so I'm a little confused lol. I can't seem to find any on FF that look like mine either. No I'm not obsessing I was just qurious lol
Alice - What a shock about your friend. There seems to be a bit of that going around as I heard another story like that. It makes you wonder what's going through their heads you know. Why go through the whole ART and be unfaithful? I feel sorry for the children involved. They didn't ask to be bought into all this.
Any way how are you? Hope the BCP isn't too unpleasant and you'll be jabbing away before to long.
Saffy - I never had any S/E on synarel. It can't be pleasant. But I guess we all deal with the unpleasant if it gets us our take home buba. I've been nauseaous since starting the stupid metformin over a month ago. I try not to complain but it really gets to you some times. I don't plan on testing before the BT because I'm on Pregnyl so It would show a positive and I'd been really excited only to be gutted.
Mindhugs - GBH to you. I wish you all the best for tomorrw.
Sunbeam - I'm glad your FS is supportive. It helps when you are all on the same page and your not fighting to get what you want.
Matthews Mum - I hope all is well.
Ferrals - I hope you are a little more optimistic now. How long untill you have the CVS? It must be getting close?
hi all, saffy-glad furbaby made in home from his adventure.I didn't need a full bladder on either of my transfers...mindhugs-glad today is a better day for you,hope tomorrow goes smoothly as possible...sunbeam-glad fs agreed to meds...mildez-sounding promising...ferrals-nice to see your name still popping up...t-hopes-how are you going?..happybaby-fingers crossed for you...alice-your such a caring person,i can understand why your friends lean on you but you are going through so much yourself,so take care of you ,going by my timetable if it goes by plan ,transfer will hopefully be fri 27th,what's happening with your cycle(bcp)....porshe-fingers crossed your embies are digging in,sorry for the loss of one of them,let us know how the others go,your body has been through so much physically & emotionally,hope you feel better as the day goes on,i've read embies start implanting around day 6/7 but everyone seems different..
Saffy, I think we posted at the same time again! Thanks for your comments - yes, I think taking the phone off the hook is a very good idea. Funny that you say your left wrist hurts more - mine too! Especially if she does it in my left thumb? Why is that, I wonder?? Feeling apprehensive is very normal but I'm a bit excited for you too - and glad I have someone to cycle with. I hope we get our BFPs together x
MatthewsMum, thanks, I will I've just started BCP today so will be jabbing in early September when you are in your TWW. Fingers crossed all goes well for you. x
Thanks Porsche. I think MatthewsMum is right for a day three it's probably around day 7 (day5-6 for a day 5 embie I think). All that bloating and feeling yuck is normal too - drink lots of water and take it easy. The TWW is so hard, just try take each day at a time. x
Last edited by Alice; August 16th, 2010 at 12:16 PM.
Nice to see you all back after the weekend. It was very quiet in here. I had an assignment to work on and spent a lot of the weekend in front of the computer. I've read the other two threads in TTC, 2WW and IVF. I couldn't drive myself crazy googling because I did that last year and there isn't anything left for me to look at. I feel a lot more settled about this cycle. It could be the acupuncture. AF turned up exactly 7 days after transfer on my two fresh cycles. I'm not sure if it will be different on a HRT FET. Maybe the Progynova tablets will keep AF away.
I've had a dull back ache and cramping off and on over the last couple of days. I hope it's good cramping. Today I'm quite bloated.
I decided that if AF doesn't show by this time next week I will buy an HPT. My BT is next Wednesday.
Saffy So glad your furbaby came back. I would be very upset if anything happened to my furbabies (dogs). One of them got out of our yard a couple of weeks ago and we could hear him barking but thought nothing of it. We I finally went outside to see what he was barking at he was outside the gate, barking to get back in. Good luck with the acupuncture. I found my whole left side was more tender than the right. Does your therapist burn a herb on one of the needles in your stomach? It creates this nice warm feeling.
Matts Mum Do you know when your transfer might be? What HRT are you taking?
Mindhugs My thoughts are with you today.
Sunbeam That's good your FS is supporting you. I hope you get some news soon about the possible cause of your mc.
Mildez FX crossed for you, there's still hope.
Porche FX crossed for you as well. Hope you get some frosties.
Ferrals I hope the wait for your CVS results isn't too unbearable.
THopes Good luck with the natural cycle.
Alice Good luck for this cycle. Is this a Down Reg?
porshe-sorry for the loss of 2 embies,great news having 4 in the frezzer though,that is how many we have on ice...happybaby-hopefully transfer will be on 27th,i'm on estrogen tabs(ethinyl estradiol),going on progesterone pesseries next monday.I was told progesterone support could delay bleeding,but didn't with me when doing fresh transfer...alice-best wishes for the official start of your ivf cycle
and 
and crossing fingers that you have your BFP close! Good luck with the TWW - shame Crafty isn't around to help you with it but HappyBaby is here so girls, go crazy, you have our full permission!!
, he is willing to do all he can to help the next one stick knowing that it will be my last try. We talked all thorough the possible outcomes that might arise from doing the IVF and the better understanding we will have of the quality of my eggs, ability of the sperm etc. He answered all my questions very thoroughly and I was with him a whole half hour, and then . . . the lovely man bulk billed me for the appointment. Could he be more wonderful?
) Bummer your medicare cap doesn't reset on the financial year instead of the calendar year - I hope too that your year ends on a high, you deserve it after so much loss. x
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