saffy - so glad af has showed up for you!! heres to a new cycle that brings you a whopping BFP! xx
porsche - great to hear you, bubs and dh are travelling well! look after yourself and please keep us updated on how the little one is doing xx
matthewsmum - sorry to hear that af arrived but today is day1, fresh cycle! such a gorgeous dh you have, what an absolute darl!! xx
Indiasmum - oh love, im sitting here typing this with tears streaming down my face, i cant begin to imagine the ache that your feeling right now... my heart breaks for you! i have 2 gorgeous dogs that i adore more than anything... i think its so beautiful that you are taking her away for a little holiday.... we become so attached to our pets and the thought of life without them is truly devastating.. im sorry its tuff right now, you'll know in your heart what is best despite the pain that it brings.. sending you lots of special love xx
ferrals - hope that cold leaves you soon xx
Alice - Miss Alice, how are you? Im worried about you! Praying that your just resting up nicely and you didnt end up at the hospital>!>! let us know xx
crafty - oh an afternoon on the beach with family!! Im so jealous!! Nothing better! xx
Luna - how are you going? how confusing for you with the digital test coming up positive!?! i thought they required a higher amt of HCG than the regular tests so is it possible that thats the correct one??
AFM - All good here, our IVF cycle is all organised! so as soon as i get AF i go in to pick up my new meds! no pill or nasal spray for me, just straight to 225units of Puregon on Day3! Im looking forward to getting it all underway!
Thanks again for all your support and kinds words over the last few days, im feeling good now
Hope you have a wonderful weekend!! Im odff to the Grand Final... again tomorrow! Thank god I have my voice back after all last weeks screaming! xx
Indias mum so sorry about your dog thinking of you ,
Saffy well at least AF turned up and you can look forward to your new cycle
Sunbeam hope you are ok and you emby is burrowing in ,
Ferrals in my thoughts as always !
T-hopes my you not testing again ? maybe a sneaky BFP you never know !!!!
Alice where are you hope you ok !!!
AFM well think I am out as my boobs are ok today and I really don't have any other symptoms apart from a dull ache in my lower back and I am sure AF is just aroung the corner I really think I have to struggle on an on and on until I just give up have to face facts 45yr old women just don't fall pregnant very often only 2% that figure keeps popping up in my head its just hopeless !!! good luck to all you youngsters you have a good chance so keep on going !!!
Crafty-i met a 47 year old pregnant women at the shops today she said it was a surprise and was not really wanted but she didnt find out until she was 4 months she was buying all new baby clothes as her youngest child is 17 and her eldest is 30 she had him at 17 so it might not happen today but it can still happen.
Sorry for the silence, I've been in hospital and to be honest it has been very upsetting two days. I ended up at Emergency with severe pain at 10pm on Wed night. My friend drove me (so grateful to her) and waited until DH could come from home. He arrived at midnight and we sat in the waiting room until 4am when the pain just got completely out of control and they had to admit me to the Emergency department. What followed was pretty tough - didn't see a doctor until 6 hours after arriving and then they sent me for x-rays. I mean, WTF? What are they going to see on an x-ray when I've presented with abdominal pain after an IVF procedure? But no, the gyno team wouldn't see me til I had x-rays. The gyno registrar finally came and said from the xrays that it looked like I was just constipated. I can't tell you how shaming that felt - my face must have burned like a beacon I was so embarrassed and upset that I might have 'made a fuss' and put so many people out only to be constipated! They weren't entirely sure so they took more blood and sent for the Colo-Rectal team who came and poked me EVERYWHERE and said no they thought it was something more serious and sent me for an CT scan. The scan showed fluid in my pelvis so they called the Gynie team back who then admitted me to a ward (it was 10am Thurs by now and we had not slept since Tues night!). The only ward that had a spare bed was the Heamatology ward so I've spent the past 48 hours with very very sick people. Wasn't until 2pm yesterday when I finally had an ultrasound and they all compared notes that I got the proper diagnosis of what had happened.
Looks like during the EPU the needle pierced a blood vessel that led to internal bleeding. The blood (about 1 cup full) then came into contact with my bowel and caused it to become irritated and distended which makes it slow down, so over the day it had filled with gas (sorry for TMI) that was trapped. Some of the blood spread up and came in contact with my diaphragm so that every time I breathed in I got an excruciating sharp pain that shot up my right hand side into my shoulder and neck. Every time I breathed in I got this awful pain which would make me panic and want to stop breathing then I'd take another breath, have more pain, start to cry, more pain then panic, not be able to breath and panic some more Poor DH went white as a sheet and had to run to the bathroom he was so upset to see me like that. It was awful. I have never had an anxiety attack before and after having two in 48 hours I hope I never have another one. It was very scary.
To top it off I'm allergic to opiates so can't have morphine, pethidine, anesthetic etc without throwing up so it took a while to convince me to take another painkiller that wouldn't make me vomit. Finally about 2pm, after being on a drip since 4am in case I had to have surgery, I was allowed to eat. I got to sleep about 4 and have just been sleeping and drinking liters of water ever since. They wanted to keep me in for another day but I asked if I could go home and after more blood they decided it would be OK.
Feel like I have been through the wringer It's hard not to get into a spiral of 'why us' 'cause it seems like there is always some bloody obstacle in the way every time we try to move forward but trying not to dwell on it. I didn't feel anything when the IVF nurse rang to tell us that 5 of my eggs had fertilised well. Apparently the transfer will still go ahead but the thought of having one more internal us or needle is making me feel sick. I hope I feel better tomorrow.
Will catch up with persies tomorrow - love to everyone x
Last edited by Alice; October 1st, 2010 at 05:45 PM.
oh Alice sweetheart- what to say but that I am so so sorry you and DH had to go through that you beautiful lady, it is so unfair, I hope you can rejoice in the 5 fertilized eggs eventually, but I can uinderstand that you are still traumatised from the last few days, for you to be on the mend quickly, hugs saffy xxxxx
Alice! That sounds so ridiculously tough sweetheart, I'm sorry it took so long to diagnose and that you had to suffer for so long I'm so glad you have 5 fertilised eggs though, we'll celebrate for you til you feel well enough to celebrate on your own. Mwa xo
alice-great big hugs ,sorry this has happened to you ,glad you'll be able to recover in the comfort of your own home...crafty-my boobs can't make up their mind either,one day sore,not so another day...t-hopes-my af hasn't come yet,i was meaning saffy's..afm-i'm going to test in the morning,thought i better before the acupuncture tomorrow.i'll use that as my excuse anyway...alice-hope you get some sleep tonight.
Oh Alice, it makes me shake just to read this story. I am keeping fingers crossed for your fertilized eggs. I know you do not want to look at another needle righ now, but I think you would be sadder if they cancelled the transfer, so good luck.
Crafty - isn't it 2% any given month? Like, when you are 25, it is 25% any given month, so you need to try for 4 months, when you are 45 it is 2% so you need to try for....50 months????? Wait, this is not right.. But I think the point is it just takes longer, but is not impossible. Also the boob thing - I think sometimes they do not get sore until later.
Thopes - I think I missed something, did AF come already? I see you have your IVF cycle all planned, so you know that this month is out?
Indias mum - so sorry about your dog
Porshe - that is the one secret that you really want to spill, isn't it? Just a couple of weeks more...
Matthews mum - that was so sweet of your DS. It brought tears to my eyes.
AFM - I am taking the advice and waiting a couple of days, that is, until tomorrow. But I think that maybe I really did get lucky, the AF is not here, even the AF-like cramps went away. My boobs are starting to hurt and the hangover feeling hangs around. Still did not tell anybody, not even DH, just you girls.
she had him at 17 so it might not happen today but it can still happen.
Long story, sorry
you beautiful lady, it is so unfair, I hope you can rejoice in the 5 fertilized eggs eventually, but I can uinderstand that you are still traumatised from the last few days, 
for you to be on the mend quickly, hugs saffy xxxxx
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