Claire'smum - I have about 4-5 anovulatory cyles a year if I am not medicated. If I don't O my cycle can go as long as 46 days. Clomid should help regualte your O'ing (though it did not work for me!) A day 21 bt is usually done to check if you O'ed though I have O'ed as late as cd25!m Not sure if that is of any help sorry bit scatty this afternoon.
Crafty - My latest BFP was dpo14 this was after my cd25 O.
AFM - Well no suprise my BT came back BFN. Have appt with FS on the 18th to request another stim. cycle in Nov. This cycle also cost about $1100 more than I had antisipated with embryo freezing and anethetist. I had figured I'd get more back from Medicare than I did. I don't want to tell Donor daddy that it was heaps more incase he says we can't afford another go.
Thank goodness it's the weekend its been the longest week.
Sunbeam-sorry it was a BFN the 1st ivf as always trial and error for your body so next time around it will know what it has to do.
Alice-No we have not told DH daughter just yet i am not confident enough that this bub is out of the woods and with DH daughter having a real hard time with Abbi's loss i dont want to do it to her again so i will hold off for as long as possible although she has looked at my belly a few times with a very inquisitive look so we cant hide it to much longer.
We did show the boys bubs u/s and they loved it and thought she looked perfect they asked what name we have chosen and we told them the truth that we still have a bit of testing to go before we can relax but they need to know what is going on as we have been having lots of appointments ect and they are old enough to know.
It is ashame that we still cant totally enjoy this pregnancy there is to many what if's but we are getting closer to an answer.
I held it together till I got home but now I'm falling apart. It's not so much the BFN as the sense of hoplessness that I may, in a few short months, have to face the horrendous reality that I might never have a child. I feel so helpless and out of control. Alice my sweet I know you are righ, I know that I have no idea what the future may hold but even the though of stopping TTC feels heartbreaking. Then even if I do get pg my chance of m/c is so high due to my 100% failure rate so far. My god how hard does life have to get. I know I'm asking for a miracle, is that really too much to ask for?
oh darling Sunbeam, my heart really aches for you. I wish I could give you a big hug It's OK to feel like this, you have been so strong and so patient and have held up through it all with so much grace and calm, you are an amazing woman. Let it go, let yourself grieve now. Feeling the pain and despair and hopelessness is all part of that grief process and you will get through it I just wish it wasn't so hard. Is your flatmate home? Can you ring a friend to come and sit with you? Poor Sunbeam, you've been through so much. Sending you lots of cyber hugs and love. We're all here for you. xxxxoooo
And no, it isn't too much to ask. Don't think about it as a failure rate - you're not a failure, not in any way, so please don't think of yourself like that. You're a beautiful woman and you'll make a beautiful mum and I hope more than anything that that time is coming very soon. Be kind to yourself now xxx
Subeam-hun you are not a failure i remember not so long ago you all telling me that when i couldnt have a healthy baby to the love of my life but i do totally understand your pain we all want that miracle and i hope to god we all get it we deserve it and have been so patient but sometimes it just gets to us life is so cruel and we get dragged down with all the disapointment and loss i know i am pretty negative and lose hope even with this bub but dont give up your dream just yet our bad luck has to come to an end sooner or later.
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