it turned out that I had an ectopic pregnancy after all. I actually tried what Alice suggested and went to the gym, felt c*** that night, so I thought things were moving. But on Monday, my hcg went up to 2600, so finally after 2 scans, they found the pregnancy in the tube. Good news is, it was very small, so I got the shot of methatraxate and my hcg will be monitored weekly. Hopefully I will not need another shot and there will be no damage to the tube.
The sad thing is, from what I've read everywhere, you have to wait at least 3 months after ectopic, to let the tube heal and to wait for the methatraxate to get out of your body, because it can cause birth defects. If you get 2 shots, the wait is 6 months, so I am hoping to avoid the second shot. But even the 3 month wait depressed me and I think I am ready to throw in a towel. They say after 40, the mc risk is 50%. If you had an ectopic, your risk of another ectopic is 15%. I am looking at those numbers and it is very hard for me to convince myself that I have a chance for a healthy pregnancy. And in 3 months, I will be 3 months older. I am ready to quit, but the thought that I will not have another baby makes me just so sad.
I will be taking a 3 month break for sure then, I did not decide yet about the future. I will be stalking you ladies, because I think a good success story is what I need to lift my spirits up. So good luck to all of you, I am keeping my fingers crossed and counting on you, do not let me down.
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