Thanks ladies - dont know what I'd do without you! xoxo really appreciate all the hugs - really needed them.
I left the house after work and was going to stay at my mums - couldnt take it anymore. But DH called and we did talk and I ended up going home. DH and I show our Utes - we have the full country utes that you may see on the roads with the big bullbars, aerials etc and we socialise with others at country events showing our Utes. Everyone loves my Ute (incl myself) because I have it in honour of my late sis and I promote my families charity on it - the Magdalene Foundation. DH feels that if I sell my Ute it wont be enough to pay off the loan on it anyway as well as do IVF and then if I were to sell it and keep the loan use the ute money for IVF, then if the IVF doesnt work - I'd have no baby and no ute. So I do see his point but the reason I was so upset is that he always ignores my opinions, suggestions etc - wont have a bar of them - is very stubborn and I just didnt think I could deal with that anymore. but I guess we all have our faults and in hindsight I guess he was thinking of my feelings in the matter - so have to love him for that. phewww was trying to make a long-story short.

In summary - trying to move forward, to tell DH exactly how I feel and hope he opens up too. I have looked into short-term personal loans and hava a finance person looking into different ones at the moment. Medical based loans. so other options so I dont have to sell my ute.

thanks again ladies xoxoxo