LT TTC & Assisted Conception May-June 2010

[Lisa B]

Thanks everyone for thinking about me and my worry about if the medication is working.

to all the lovely ladies having or about to have their transfers.

Lairdoz - good luck with your transfer. Hope the cold goes away really soon. It seems to be the season, I have one as well.

Yogi - yes I find it hard to remember everything as well. for your scan on Friday. One step at a time. Hopefully you will be pleasantly surprised.

LMM - thanks for sharing your experience...it all turned out okay for me. 8-10 eggs sounds great! with your transfer. I hope you will be rewarded well with your different approach.

Sevie - Sorry about the negative HPT. The whole twin thing is amazing. I hope it works out for your sister. Hopefully the time will go quickly for you so that you can start your DIVF. The wait must be frustrating.

Hi to all the other ladies I have missed.

AFM: Had my scan today. Was a bit annoyed because my appointment was rescheduled from 8am to 9am and then the FS was running late and ended up being seeing at 9.30am. I was running very late for work. Anyhow, my scan showed I had 11 follicles of which 3 were a bit smaller than the other 8. I'm relieved to see that all is going well so far. I have another scan on Thursday and will mostly likely have EPU on Sun/Mon.

[Dreams into Reality]

Hello ladies,

How has your day been?

Kaybee: it is definately a great thing knowing you are not alone in this. You have a great group of support. Hoping good news comes from your FET the other day.

Sevie: Do you get the symptoms, etc of your sister with everything or just with the pregnancy?
Wishing you and your sister the best of luck, really hope it works out for the both of you!

littlemiss: Did you end up managing to keep yourself awake for trigger or did you snooze and wake up for it.
Good luck with epu tomorrow and also good luck with the transfer.

Yogi: Sending good luck your way for the scan on Friday. Hopefully you will get an excellent result!

Meg: the Clomid works for you! Sending you lots and lots of positive thoughts!

Lairdoz: First of all, hopefully you are feeling much better soon. Hoping the ET goes great for you and really hoping it brings a BFP your way! Lots of positive thoughts are sent your way! Also may the TWW go quickly for you!

Loops: Has anyone's tractor selling vibes brought in any offers yet? If not we are not sending enough vibes . Good luck with the testing on Saturday, hopefully it brings a good result.
Thank you for the hugs! You are welcome for the hugs and understanding, we are all here to care and support one another and it's the least I could do

LisaB: Hopefully something great comes from the Follicles. Good luck with the next scan and EPU.
Sending heaps of positive vibes your way. Hopefully we will be hearing of a BFP in the next few weeks from you

AFM: Had a bit of a rough day today, my CEO talked to me today and told me my job is most likely to be finishing up at the end of June due to limited funding, I worked for them last year and lost my job when they lost funding last time but went back when it picked up as they were good to work for, it's even worse as where I am in the outback there is very few jobs on offer. Also AF is due any day and I get very emotional around when it's due.
So today was a huge emotional blow to the head because all I could think about was we may have to delay our ICSI cycle until next year and I just couldn't stop (to make matters worse they even approved all my leave for IVF in September, why couldn't they just tell me they are unsure of what's happening with funding as they know months in advance), I had to leave work and went to DH's work, (where I fill in to help out sometimes) and the General Manager came up and grabbed me in a big hug and he told me everything will be okay and they will try to help me out with more shifts because he know's how important the IVF is to us, it's nice knowing there are people out there like that.
It was a horrible feeling, I just felt like DH and I are not supposed to have children as everytime we have attempted to start IVF in the past, something else has come up and it's been delayed and the thought of delaying it again, felt like my world was coming down around me.
My apologies ladies, I just really needed to get that out and I am sorry if it didn't make sense, I am still a little all over the place!!!

[Kaybee]

Hi chicks,

Dreams - what a day!!! Hope you are feeling a little better after getting things out. I'm sure most of us have, at times, felt like we should take the hint from the universe and just give up on this dream. It's really hard not to feel like that when you're just dealt blow after blow, but it's going to happen. We're so lucky to live in a time and place where ivf and whatever else IS an option - yes, a bloody expensive, emotional and at times painful option but if it gets us that baby we'll go through almost anything. I'm sure AF isn't helping you feel any better either. Wish there was something I could say

Sevie - god knows how you must be feeling now after your crazy week as well. Hope you're coping.

Meg - sorry, I was confused, I said something about you starting again on the ivf ride. GL with the clomid - hopefully this will be IT

LMM - best of luck for EPU tomorrow

[sevie]

Geez, I keep on nodding off in front of the computer....so just a quickie for Yogi.
The 'twin-thing' has spun me out a bit too! I love my sis.
Yogi- thanks so much for the link. I think I might ring the FS to encourage him to up the Gonal-f dose. 150 seems crazy low for a 32 year old with an AMH of 9.3?!

[Loops12]

Hi Ladies
Well some good news and some bad news last night. Good is that yes Dreams into Reality - the tractor selling vibes have worked, thanks so much to you all. A friend of a friend with a lot of money and a big slashing contract coming up has given us a verbal yes - he wants to buy it. I wont be jumping up and down until the money is in our bank account but very relieved and obviously thrilled Might take him a few weeks to get a little finance approved but Im happy with that.
So then because I was happier and we got a little money from DH's work I went out and bought couple of tests - wouldnt you know it BFN
So then we had to discuss last night would we go ahead and start the process for our July IVF or would we wait it out until Oct and save a bit more. We think its wise if we wait a bit and get rid of some debts - We are sick to death of the money stresses. So probably Oct unless we decided to go to the Melb clinic after a month or so then we can probably do it earlier.

DreamsIntoReality ~ thanks hun, now I want to return the favour. So sorry about your job . I know what that is like as I was made redundant couple yrs back from job I loved due to govt funding. Im sure you'll have no troubles finding other work, GL hun. Hoping you have a bit of time to find something else before you finish up. With all our money issues etc I felt exactly the same so completely understand how you feel like nothing goes right towards having a child. But I reckon the good time have got to come very soon for both of us, hang in there, chin up.

Lisa B ~ So happy your follies are doing well - that sounds great! GL for the weekend at EPU, FX you get lots of big eggies!

[terry]

Hi ladies

Thankm you all for your good wishes. Had my FET yesterday at lunchtime all went well and now hoping that my little embie is snuggling in tight. Had acupunture about 2 hours after transfer and have spent the past 24 hours resting. Will go back to work tomorrow and have quite a few plans for the long weekend so hopefully wont think about it too much except when I have to take all my medications. Have thrown evrything at it this month still taking estrogen tablets now alos on asprin and the progestrone pressaries as well as my chinese herbs and vitamins. Fingers crossed this will do the trick.

Look foward to seeing a few more of you in the 2WW soon

[trueblue]

Loops: aw chick that's such great news bout the tractor bout time u guys got a break
AFM: Tommorrow is d day and am not feeling positive at all each time I think what if we actually get a bfp finally that horrible little part of your head that tells you but why get your hopes up nothing has worked yet so why this... I can't wait for tommorrow so we can get our answer this tww is killing me I am just trying to work out how we are going to deal with a negative I know this is only our first round of ai but when te doctors have found nothing wrong with either of you apart from dh's slightly low sperm count which shouldn't be effecting then why wouldn't the first round work...
I hate that i am feeling so negative hope you girls can stay more positive than me..

[Loops12]

Terry ~ Good work hun, rest up and FX this lil one sticks. Sending you sticky vibes.

True ~ hun, think POSITIVE. I know what ya mean though, I went through the same things in my head. Have everything crossed for you for tomorrow. Will be waiting with anticipation for the BFP!! xoxoxo. Yep thanks - it is about time we had some good news.

Its weird I still feel like there is something going on in my tum LOL. Maybe it was still too early - wishful thinking perhaps. Or most likely my body is still trying to get back to normal and AF is going to come on time hopefully at least.

[RhiChiChi]

Hello to all,

I hope you don't mind me joining in, well I will be lurking for a little bit. DH & I have just been referred to IVF specialist (appt in July).
A brief background - TTC # 2 for 20 months with 2 m/c during this time. Tried Clomid for 6 mths & just had laparoscopy 2 weeks ago - results all clear. DH has had his SA done & all clear too, so we don't know what the issue is. Anyway, am a little muddled in the head and am still posting in the clomid/met group for the time being too. Have 1 DD (nearly 3) who took 13 months to conceive (& after two m/c) but didn't realise their was 'an issue' as such until this time around.

I am going to go back through this thread to get up to speed with you all & the terminology and also to stalk the other IVF/assisted conception thread.

Julia

[Yogi Bear]

Welcome Julia - i hope your next cycle is a winner and your stay here is short & sweet

Loops - great news about selling the tractor but doesn't it truly S&%K that this ivf game is so expensive. I get so angry sometimes when "normal" people can spend $20 on a DVD, pizza & bottle of red, have a good night then BAM preggers!! Here we have to fork out thousands $$$ its so not fair I hope your next cycle, whenever that may be, is the one for you xxx

Trueblue - all things crossed for you tomorrow

Terry - Hooray for having embie on board, now the anxious waiting waiting waiting...

sevie - I am on 400 puregon and have been around this dose for quite a few cycles. sounds like you could definitely go higher considering your previous outcomes. Are you going to try with your own eggs or do donor cycle? (sorry i forgot...told you i have memory of a fish on here )

Dreams - sorry to hear about your job, vent all you like here thats what we are here for. Sounds like your DH's boss is a good man i hope things work out ok for you both. Big hugs for you, take it easy xxx

Lisa - 11 follicles is great! good luck for the scan tomorrow i hope they continue to plumpen up (is that a word?!) Your future bub is in there somewhere i'm sure!

Lairdoz - how did you go today? thinking of you and hoping you are feeling better?

Big hellos to all the beautiful ladies out there, may your dreams & happy times be just around the corner for you all. I have been looking around the corner for years now but am still hoping that one day i will see a big bright light ahead leading me off of this bumpy ivf rollercoaster!!
Might just go now and try the ole "DVD, pizza & bottle of red" protocol...we can always hope!!
Hooroo

[sunshine 11]

Hi Ladies,
I have tried to read back a few pages to do persies, but it's very hard as there are so many of us so apologies for anyone I have missed !!

Trueblue - GL for tomorrow! FX for you xxx
Loops, Great to hear about the tractor, I hope October is your month if that;'s when you decide to go again. It will come around soon enough!
Terry - see you in the 2WW, I hope this month is our month
Dreams - I'm so sorry to hear about your job, that sounds awful. It seems so unfair you have to go through all this as well as worrying about work. I hope it all works out for you and know we are all here to support you.
Lisa B - Great news about your follies. Don't you hate the way we have to wait around for the privledge of paying everyone a small fortune! It's so stressful when you have to go to work and don't want to be late, but I hope the number of follies made you feel better.
Meg - So understand the desire to just be able to get on with life!! I hope clomid works for you and you stop having to think ahead past failures that haven't happened and start planning for your new baby. GL to you xx
Littlemissmoo - Hope the EPU went well
RhiChiChi(Julia!) - welcome, hope this is a short visit for you

Mildez, Arielle and Trea, Kaybee, Sevie and anyone else I have missed - hope you are all doing well

AFM - I had my ET today, a blast which was OK looking (it compacted initially then continued to expand whatever that means). Had to stop the embryologist and FS just the transfer before as I am still pretty sick and coughing up a storm. Doc was annoyed I told him to stop but I knew I couldn't cough during the transfer. He let me sit up during the procedure and for the wait afterwards and I didn't cough again. I swear it's the stress of not being able to cough that makes you want to cough!
So it's another 2WW for me. I will be fine until this time next week when I will start counting the hours. This is a crappy rollercoaster ride we are all on!! xxx

[Porsche]

Hi Ladies

I thought I'd come follow Rhichichi and join in here. I have my appointment for my first IVF treatment on the 22nd of June. Not sure what to expect really. I guess I'll get my schedual etc... We have our nurse coordinator appointment first and then off to the DR upstairs. I had to change our nurse coordinator appointment from Friday becaus of DH. He plays touch football for work and apparently the final is the Friday grrr.

I told DH he has to mak all the appointments from now on because I always make them when he has things on. Bout time he did something anyway lol.

Dreams into reality - Did you post a question on BH? I replyed to you. I use a diferent user name on there. See if you can guess lol.

[Dreams into Reality]

Hello Ladies!
Well yesterday and today were much better days for me. i couldn't be down about the job for too long. Whatever happens, happens and things will eventually work out. I am finishing up on the 2nd of July, so have a few weeks.
A HUGE THANK YOU to you all for the support. A big to you all!
I have a applied for a new job and I am hopeful, just find that being in a small town, when a full time job comes up like that, a lot of people go for it. My current CEO has given me a great reference letter so that is a plus, also DH's boss is great also and prepared to write a reference.

Kaybee: AF didn't help with te emotions the other day lol. You have said more than enough and the hug was great thank you

Sevie: How are you going at the moment?

Loops: Great news about the tractor, hopefully you get the money soon for it. Sorry to hear about the BFN. Your time will come soon, I know not soon enough but hang in there, we are all sending lots of positive thoughts your way. . Hopefully now you don't have the stress of the tractor, etc things will happen for you!
Thank you for you support. Greatly appreciated.

Terry: Sending lots your way!

True: Hoping you got positive results! Been thinking lots of PT's for you and hoping this is it for you!

RhiChiChi: Julia, Don't mind at all, welcome into the chat! There are a great bunch of ladies around different parts of the forums and they are all wonderful and very supportive.
Wishing you the best of luck with TTC and may something great come out of it.

Yogi:

I get so angry sometimes when "normal" people can spend $20 on a DVD, pizza & bottle of red, have a good night then BAM preggers!! Here we have to fork out thousands $$$ its so not fair

. It is very unfair, it's worse when those people didn't even want kids, etc. It's a shame it costs so much for something that we truly yearn for. I know you are going to be a great mum when it comes to it and your children are going to know what you went through to have the little miracles in your life and they will look at you and know just how precious they are and they will be thankful you did what you did (if that makes sense).
btw thank you for your support

Lairdoz: All my fingers are crossed and hoping we hear of a BFN at the end of the TWW. It's good they let you sit up at least it stopped the coughing.
It's not a fun rollercoaster ride but hopefully this time you can hop off the ride with some good news.
Thank you for your support also, you have all been great to me.

Porche: ZB??? Are you stalking me hehe! Hello again. Did my name give it away? Glad to see you here!

Well ladies take care
Dreams xox

[Porsche]

Hi Dreams Into Reality

HE HE. Sssshhhh don't tell everyone I'm stalking you.

Yes the name gave it away and then your post confirmed it. Yes I go by ZB on BH. I find that if BH gets too much I come here and vise versa. BH is really getting me down at the moment so I tend to favour this site better.

[trueblue]

gday girls not going to do any persies as has not been a good day I started bleeding bout lunch time while we were at a dairy seminar so had to put on a brave face till we got home. I called the nurse she's been chasing my results all day so hasn't got them yet but when i told her about the bleeding she sounded like she was going to cry with me.
So am sitting here with a milo have had a few good cry's gotta wait till morning when the nurse calsl with the results so we can start our game plan for next round which I am pretty sure will be straight away I know it was only our first round but unfortunately my gut negativity was right and it hasn't worked.

[Lisa B]

Trueblue - so sorry hunnie, it's just not fair. It must have been hard to hold it in today whilst you were at the seminar. Very brave.

DIR - hope you get that new job, my sister lived in a small town so I've heard that any opening can be like flies to honey.

Porsche - welcome. GL with your appointment. Hopefully you will be preggers in no time.

Lairdoz - I hope this is the sticky one. I was imagining the coughing during the transfer as I have a cough as well. It's bad enough trying to delay sneezing after the syneral.

Yogi - I hope you are off the dreaded TTC treadmill really soon. You never know about that la-naturale approach. I'm sure you've heard just as many stories as I have about people on IVF but end up UTD naturally.

Julia - you've been through a lot. Don't you hate the unexplained category. I'm technically unexplained but have a range of things which 'might' compromise my chances each month. Anyhow, welcome!

Loops - yay, congratulations about the tractor Stay away AF for 9 months!!!

Terry - great news on the FET going well. You certainly have thrown everything at it. great to see that you have some distractions coming up this weekend.

AFM: had my final scan today and a few more follicles have popped up so I now have 15. I'm on standby for a call from the nurse on Saturday to advise when to trigger. Still looking at either Monday/Tuesday. Looking forward to the long weekend!!!

[sunshine 11]

Trueblue - sorry again that it hasn't worked out this month - I hope you are doing OK and happy for you that you feel good to go for next month. xxx

[Kaybee]

So sorry for you guys Loops and Trueblue. So unfair Loops hopefully you'll get UTD naturally while waiting for October to swing around - getting all the bills paid off in the meantime. And Trueblue I know how frustratingly annoying that 'unexplained' label can be - my FS keeps telling me how lucky I am compared to some women, but I think, if I'm so lucky where's the baby? I hope next month is the one for you.

Lairdoz and Terry - hope that your bellies are enjoying their cuddly little embies tucking in for the next 9 months.

Porsche and Rhichichi - Hi, GL with your upcoming IVF appointments - I really hope you're out of here before long

Lisa - glad your scan went well - 15 follicles! - you must be feeling like a cow with a full udder (god, that's so gross, sorry!). Your meds are obviously working

AFM - had scan and bloodtest today and have FET scheduled for next Thurs. Also spoke to FS about finding it out why I'm still on this ride seeing as everything is supposed to be fine with me and DH. I don't want to have to go through another mc before they start doing some tests. So, he's given me a bloodtest form for some clotting disorders and other genetic stuff. He said it might cost a bit - don't suppose anyone knows how much I'm looking at for the tests???? He also said DH should have a sperm fragmentation analysis - which I thought was a bit weird since I have about 5 more frozen embies, (therefore taking his sperm out of the equation), but he said that fragmented sperm can affect embryo quality. (Sorry to get all technical but thought someone else might find the info useful).

Ahhh, also feeling like I have been thinking about this cycle too much already - not even up to the TWW yet and I've been on here everyday - just feel like I'm setting myself up for a fall.