That is a perfect analogy Sush, I will use that in the future. Feel better today, trying to shift focus. Or was.

My SIL called me this morning. She miscarried their first angel a year ago this week - she called today in tears saying "I'm pregnant and bleeding again" - she is 7 weeks and they hadn't told anyone because of what happened this time last year when she was 10 weeks. Life is so cruel and awful. She has a scan this afternoon and I am hoping like hell that she and my baby brother see a heartbeat. I swear, if I can make it so I didnt get my BFP this month so she can hang onto her baby, and I'll do the bleeding with AF for us both I would. And I swear I wont complain about my BFN for this month again as a result. Surely it cant be this cruel to be the same week and all for them?

She has been trying since a year ago to fall again with no luck til this, she has severe endo. and I guess this could be why? I just desperately do not want this to happen to them again. Its not fair. I really am not handling this weel today, after my own news yesterday