Hi again,

I'm home alone briefly so will get it out now while no-ones here. Have been spotting all day (i think that's what you'd call it - warning TMI - bit of blood when I wipe and a little bit in my knickers - I warned you). And still this feeling that I can't really describe - bloaty, tight maybe. I rang the nurse who said to come in for a BT tomorrow which will be only 7 days post transfer (5 day blast). She said it will give us an idea either way. Why why why why can't I just have a normal cycle where I do all the things I'm supposed to do and my body helps grow a lovely little bub??? Why does it all have to be so damned unfair.

Mum 2 be - thanks for your story - I'm obviously hoping and praying things will work out but I just know that this isn't supposed to happen and can't be good.

The nurse said that if I was pregnant but had low progesterone it is usually an indication that the pg wasn't going to last. I asked about taking more progesterone (I only do 2 pessaries a day) and she said that it would boost my level but often only delays the inevitable. Sorry to anyone else who is in the same situation!!

Anyway, I won't get ahead of myself, but, like terry said, you chicks know how it feels and what it all means more than anyone else

BTW - sorry for the sad face at the start of my last post - it was an accident!