LT TTC Two Week Wait 2012 #8

**Miss.B** · December 19th, 2012, 06:50 AM

n2l. Not fair

**Amy_jellybean** · December 19th, 2012, 07:12 AM

Oh N2L

why does life have to be so bloody unfair sometimes!!!

**myturn** · December 19th, 2012, 07:39 AM

I found brown crinone

**Beau30** · December 19th, 2012, 07:51 AM

N2L I am so sorry. Sending you massive hugs. Xx

**kerbear** · December 19th, 2012, 07:53 AM

Hug Myturn that sucks

**nothing2lose** · December 19th, 2012, 08:33 AM

Myturn

:hugs:

It is so effed I can barely stand it.

**myturn** · December 19th, 2012, 08:51 AM

I agree. Thanks lovely. I think I'll be taking this one quite hard. But I know it will be harder for both of you and I am so so sorry xox

**nothing2lose** · December 19th, 2012, 09:03 AM

I just don't know where we go from here. Donor eggs will cost $20k plus (as well as airfares and accommodation, so another $5-10k). I could get the money together for later in 2013 but is it worth it given I had a "perfect" AA blast and it went nowhere???

Keep trying naturally, sure, but I think it's more likely that I will win Tatts.

Another full cycle like I just did? It was gruelling to be honest and it ended up costing over $11k out of pocket.

Maybe I just tell DP to get another GF and have a baby with her?? Easier all round

**myturn** · December 19th, 2012, 09:07 AM

I am scared of all of that. And right now I really hate me. And I hate that feeling too. It's just all crap.

N2l I really wished it was going to be you.

**myturn** · December 19th, 2012, 09:15 AM

I'm definitely out. There's blood.

**Emma09** · December 19th, 2012, 09:16 AM

N2L and Myturn- great, big, soft, squishy

to you.
Go easy on yourselves today.

**nothing2lose** · December 19th, 2012, 09:17 AM

Honestly Myturn? I wished it was going to be me too. Sorry if that sounds selfish but I have been in this thread for over two years now, and the clomid thread six months before that. It was my turn dammit

I have seen so many women come and go with BFPs. Some first time, some after a few months...but the vast majority end up "graduating". Not me. Looks like I am here for life.

(Not that I begrudge anyone else a BFP!)

**nothing2lose** · December 19th, 2012, 09:21 AM

I'm definitely out. There's blood.

Like I said - Effed.

**minniemouse** · December 19th, 2012, 09:56 AM

nothing2lose and my turn

so not fair

**miloro** · December 19th, 2012, 11:12 AM

Myturn and N2L

I was so sad to read your posts. I'm sorry guys. I hope you can find some joy and happiness over Christmas.

**Miss.B** · December 19th, 2012, 11:31 AM

Oh no myturn!!! This is just crap

TTC shouldn't be so damn hard

Sending you lots of warm hugs hun xoxoxox

N2L, it was supposed to be your turn. You've been going at it for so long, it really is not fair. Two things, don't stop trying naturally and don't tell your DP to get a new girlfriend. I still think you'll get your chance one day. Look at Dusty. She had a heart wrenching TTC journey, with many years of heartbreak, and eventually fell pg with a donor egg (not saying that's what you should do). Then, after all that, she fell pg with a natural miracle against all odds. I look to Dusty for my inspiration. Don't give up just yet. You are only 40. You have perfect embies. You just need them to stick. Big squeeshy hugs darling xoxox

**Joeve** · December 19th, 2012, 12:37 PM

Hugs to you both. It's heart breaking. We started our ttc journey in 2006 and after a few breaks and lots of medical help it finally happened for me. I know I am lucky but not a day goes by I don't remember that feeling of where you are. I want so much for you both to get your bfps I am angry for you.
I just am so sorry it wasn't this time.
Hugs and hugs xx I just don't know what else to say.