Alice I am so sorry your having a hard time dealing with you SIL and I guess you may be right about the news the best advice I can offer is to write down on a piece of paper exactly how you feel all the swear words the works and read it out loud a few times and get it out you system, then when the phone rings you can say the nice things you know you should say !!! I know its really hard as I myself had to listen to my son tell me his new wife was UTD after trying for 2 months and I had mc 6 mnths earlier. But I was glad for them and had to tell myself they will be happy for me when I eventually get pg again in the future!! So Alice be strong take a deep breath and be calm and look on the bright side she is older than you and you have just as much chance of getting it right 1st time when you go for your IVF next month !!! after all your hard work and your chinese meds your turn will come !

Thanks Iona I am not even going to bother testing if they want to test tomorow then they can but I am only 9-10 DPO so not really in with a chance anyway even though my boobs feel sore today and I keep feeling nauseas think its just nerves I have been reading up all afternoon on fertility of women age 45 and its not good think I am wasting my money tomorow stupid old fool that I am !