It surely is a relief to realise I am not alone with these feelings. I guess it's a grief reaction. Maybe that's what you are looking for rather than PTSD... Of course it could be a PTSD reaction.... But that would be a pretty severe impact on your life to get that diagnosis. Grief and loss.... That is exactly how I perceive it.

And grief never goes away. People move forward and have healthy lives, but grief is always there looming, it comes out when you least expect it. We understand this when it comes to people dying, but things like LTTTC are less tangible when we think and talk about grief. It's harder for other to accept. They think that when you have that baby it all goes away. But it doesn't. It still defines us. It still determines the way we interact and talk about things with others.

I wish it would go away. I would like to just 'be' myturn. Not that girl who had to do IVF and took four years to get pregnant. Ans a whole bunch of other things that betray low self esteem and a lack of confidence etc etc etc... Not all coming from LTTTC.... But... Those that are not LTTTC related are exacerbated by it.