after i posted my reply i was sitting here reading back and it suddeny hit my that in a couple of months i might be pregnant. This was a great thought but it did make me think about the what ifs, what if it works and i lose it again, what if im a horrible mother? I dont know why it is in my mind but i think its that i try sooo hard to get it that i put so much pressure on myselve and worry so much about another misscarrge or other things that may happen.
does anyone else feel this or am i just having a mental moment?
It's only natural to worry about the 'what ifs', but these thoughts don't serve us too well.
Each time I catch myself thinking negatively (and believe me I have many of those moments!) I take a step back and remind myself that I'm worrying about something that hasn't happened yet and may never happen. I'm wasting precious time on negative thoughts, so I remind myself to be present and focus on the good things that are happening, e.g. that I'm taking positive steps forward to have a baby rather than 'what if I am an eternal infertile'. And then I tell myself to lighten up and think about the good things I have in my life.
Sometimes this is all easier said than done, especially when AF arrives, but I know that if I spend too much time worrying then I'm not actually achieving anything. I'm just putting myself into a self-induced state of distress, which isn't good for me or my future bubba.
Mez Moz - I was CONVINCED AF was on her way, as I was cramping from a few days before and had a spot a few days before. It was only when AF didn't show that evening that I "wondered" and did a test, but as it was faint, I still didn't beleive it and thought that AF was still coming! It's quite funny now when I think about it, as god knows how many months now, I have been analysing every symptom, and convinced they were all early pg signs, only to be disappointed, and the last two times I fell pg, I was convinced I wasn't as I wasn't having fake symptoms!
This was my first cycle of clomid - the FS wanted me to do 2 cycles of clomid before starting IVF, so we weren't even expecting the clomid to work!!
Tammara - I have "those moments" all the time. I don't want to lose another one, and I also worry about what sort of parents we'll make, but I KNOW that we'll be OK, and better than some that we see!! And that our child will be loved because it is SOO wanted. hugs.
Well, I spoke to FS yesterday, and they want BT results first before they see me, so I'm off to the GP today, to get my BT.
*babydust*
Last edited by onthefly; January 5th, 2010 at 11:54 AM.
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Milly I'm so happy for you!I know what you mean about looking so closely for symptoms...I've been peeing more than usual today so I'm thinking, ooh could that be a sign??? The 2WW can be torture!
Let me know how you go with your FS... I've been wondering what happens with FS when fall pg. Do you have to pay them another $90 just so they can say "congratulations" !!!Do they say you are in a high risk category coz you were on clomid? It will be a happy day when I can say "bye bye" to my FS!
Forstly Congrats to Milly, Such great news. When i went for my Bloods and got told i was Pg i went home and did a Pg test just to see myself and the line was very faint it took a few days for the line to get much darker, CONGRATS..
Tammara glad you got over your "moment" It gets so hard sometimes but you really do need to stay positive ike you said you might be pg in a few months so you need all the positive energy that you can get atm. The amount that you are working to try and get this little bub should reassure you that you are going to be a wonderful mother Good luck with the councelling. Great to hear its all coming along.. Go with it and try and enjoy.
As for me im feeling much better, nausea has pretty much dissapeared, just getting a few headaches and not sleeping the best but i can cope with that. 15 weeks and counting yay
Mez Moz - FS wants me to have an early dating scan (at 8w) and will see me soon after, so I guess it's not just "$90 & congrats", but then 8w is still another 3 weeks away, and my appt isn't until another week or so after that. So I'm not sure what they would be able to do anyway?????
Milly, let me know how you go with your FS... it will be interesting to know when he finally 'hands you over' to the next carer.
I had a mini moment this morning. Thought I felt some cramping, signifying AF is on her way, but now I think I just needed to go to the loo! I'm 7 DPO and AF usually starts to let me know she's on her way from 8-9 DPO, so I'm being hypervigilant for AF signs. don't let her arrive!!!
have all my fingers crossed for you mez hope you get your bfp
i got more paper work from the IVF nurse and my "procedure" (sounds so clinical lol) is only weeks away they said it will be done in the week starting feb 8. Im not sure on dates as yet but i am guessing the egg retrieval will be done on the monday then they will fertalise it then implant in me on the thursday or friday - does this sound right frustrated?
im off to bed to try and get a full night sleep after having tonsilitis non night all
Tammara :- Going from what i remember they can fertalise the eggs for 3 - 5 days. They did my egg retreval on a Monday and then did the transfer on the Saturday so mine was 5 days.
How exciting for you.. Just make sure once you have the transfer done, rest. I took a week off work to relax and i honestly think this must have helped even just a little. I warn you the wait for the bloods after they do the transfer to see if you are PG is horrible its the longest 10 days of your life, But be patient, positive and relax.
I wish you all the luck in the world
Thanks for the reply and information the wait will be horrid im so impatient at the best of times, i have a desk job so i will be better off not taking time off work so i can try and keep my mind busy. But i will definately take a little time for myself and hubby
Last edited by tammara; January 8th, 2010 at 05:20 PM.
: . . . i should have said HAVE a desk job
Hey everyone so just took my 4th round of clomid I have noticed the last couple of times my cm has been sort of dry when it's usually clear and slippery around the time of ovulation I've heard taking robitussin cough medicine can help so have started taking it. It sounds a bit silly but it's meant to work. Does anyone know what else works? Xx
Bella, I've had the same problem, even before starting clomid. My FS said stay away from lube, even the so called 'fertility friendly' ones, which is what I had been relying on. I was almost going to try raw egg white but chickened out (lol). I found the best solution was to take the BD slow and get into it rather than just baby making sex...although when you have to BD every day during O time this can be hard!
I always get AF 11 - 12 DPO. I'm up to day 12 DPO now and no sign of AF!!!! My temps are still high and I have no PMT symptoms or cramps, which I usually get. I did a preg test this morning and no BFP, but it's probably too early. I am I am UTD as I'm scheduled to have my lap next Thursday! I'm thinking I should go to the docs this Friday so I can get a blood test done in time before the lap. I've got a good feeling, but I don't know if it's just me getting my hopes up.
hi thanks for the advice i havent noticed anything yet with taking robitussin but i am due to ovulate starting anwhere between thursday - monday so hopefully by then it will have worked and yeah i havent tried lube as i heard its bad although pree seed is meant to be the only one to use....mez moz ill keep my fingers crossed for you!! i hope its happened this time for you xx
AF arrived yesterday morning with avengance so round one of clomid didn't work... starting round two tommorrow. I have heard you have a bgetter chance in round two is that true?
So I though I would just pop on for a quick pre op post. Got my lap tomorrow and I am really freaking out now. I know all will be ok but I have never even had stitches before so I'm quite scared.
Sorry I haven't been on for a while, I have been reading all your posts but just wanted a a total TTC break.
I hope that 2010 is the year for all of us, I dont know if I could get through another 12 months of this rubbish. Sorry feeling a little low at the moment.
Babydust to all, hope everything is progressing for you all and that we get our BFP's very very soon.
I will post again on Friday to let you all know how I go with my op.
keli good luck with your op I had mine done last oct you'll be a little sore after as to be expected but just make sure you rest and don't go over doing it.
don't let her arrive!!!
non night all
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