Nooooooo! If POAS makes you feel crap - doing it every day will make you feel crapper! You don't need to know if the trigger is gone, you will find that out in two weeks whether or not you test! Make the decision based on how you want to feel every day.... I know my own mental health was better for not testing.... That's not the same for everyone, but you make the right decision for yourself, regardless of what others would do.

To be honest, i actually think, in my professional opinion (and I mean it!). It's not helpful for most people to obsess that much. I understand the rare few might benefit.... But I think for most people ... It doesn't help....

Just sit with the knowledge that our trigger worked.... It is ten days until it leaves the system.... Live in the illusion and try to enjoy it and just "live", take the pressure off yourself to know or not know.... If it's going to happen it will, and testing won't increase that chance....

I know its hard. I really do... And if you need to test before BT I totally understand.... But don't take up all your brain power living in the what ifs..... You will miss the journey along the way, and who knows what unit are missing that IS happening a round you.... Important life moments that you won't get back...

Just my opinion... For what it's worth....


Sorry for bossing.........will sneak back out again....

Miss you all daily, and wish you could all join me soon xox