So I POAS again this morning, another . So I'm 99.9% sure that it's all over for me......again. I'm gutted to say the least and feel like someone just hollowed out my chest. Now I'm off to work and have to pretend to be polite and happy to people all day and have my boss rub her big pregnant belly in my face all day!
Oh BJ - bugger, but you might have a late implanter?
FGS and Leabie-big hugs, this sucks.
AFM-all over for me. AF came last night early and with a vengence. Had my meltdown and now I am looking forward to next month. I figure every failed attempt is one closer to the one that will bring me my baby.
BJ... I am so sorry hun... I know EXACTLY how you feel with the work situation... I had to work my whole cycle and 2ww... and there are THREE heavily pg women that I work very closely with - and the day I started spotting I found out one of my direct reports is 5 wks pg. FML!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's reaaaaaaaaaally hard to concentrate during the 2ww... but, now that it's over- regardless of the result - I am feeling so, so, sooo much better. I feel like I can look at things clearly now... like before my mind was so hazy... It's so hard to explain...
Leabie - how you doing hun?
Sharee- you're so amazingly positive!!! but life has to go on doesnt it....
Sharee - I'm so sorry honey, but your attitude is so amazing! I wish I had your positivity.
Thanks for all your kind thoughts and hopes ladies but I'm out
I asked if i could just go and have my BT today and got the call a few hours ago that it is definitely a BFN. Even though I kind of knew, it has hit me like a ton of bricks. This is my 3rd fail and I am starting to lose faith. I just can't pull myself together tonight, sorry to be a downer. I'll talk to you all soon. Thanks again for all your support. You are all amazing!
B xxx
This is so not the way I wanted to start this post but here goes Sharee, bj*81, Leabie, FGS So so so sorry to hear this is not the one for you strong lovely ladies wishing all of you the best next time around hang in there girls it will be your time soon.
AFM One week down and only 5 days to go I have been trying not to over analyize anything but I have had sore bb's on and off and have started suffering from insomnia going to bed real late after work and laying there for a couple hours before I fall asleep only to be awake by 7am oh and then being dead tired about 3 hours after waking up but I am trying to not get my hopes up trying to think positive and not think about it at the same time is kinda hard to do. Also been kinda emotional driving home from a friends place the other day I felt like crying for no apparent reason and then watched Deep Impact and bawled my eyes out through the whole thing even though I have seen that movie a hundred times or so.
Gosh, it's been forever since I've been on BB. Sometimes ater a couple of BFN you get disheartened and can't bear talking to anyone....
Sharee, bj*81, Leabie, FGS - I know exactly how you guys are feeling. I'm so sorry to hear about your BFN's. Here I am at 37 still hoping and praying. The emotional rollercoaster never seems to get any easier. We moved into a new area last July and are surrounded by a whole network of new people asking "shouldn't you too get cracking on babymaking???" Well yes, but it's none of your business what's going on!!!
Well I am on the dreaded TWW. This is my last frozen Blastie from my sim cycle. If this doesn't work I have to go back for another laproscopy to clean out my endo - which I HATE and dread!!! The recovery is shocking.
Get a load of my weird symptoms :
7dpo - massive, sore boobies, massive stomach, literally 4 or 5 pink spots came out, and some twinging and cramping
8dpo - mild cramping (down legs) and severely sore lower back - boobs and stomach slightly deflated and much less sore, but still a little bit
9dpo - feels like I put my lower back out, so off to physio then major hot flushes with instant sweating for about 4 hours, and headache. Some pink discharge.
10dpo - mild cramping about twice a day, burping and grumbling tummy - cold coming on and shivering on and off. More discharge -normal colour.
11dpo -mild cramping twice a day, boobs and stomach same as 8dpo still (unchanged), burping now coupled with farting. Feels like I want to diarrhoea, but when I go to the toilet either nothing comes or it's very hard packed. Cold getting worse still with a few shivers. Even more discharge!!!
12dpo - (today) waiting to see......
What I have felt since 10dpo is similar to what I get with my normal periods. It was weird because I'd get a strange symptom one day only to have it back off the next day. And so they rear their heads then back off???
The witch is due on Sunday, so that will be telling for me. At the beginning of this week I was thinking WOW this could be the one!!! But now I just don't know. This is the point it gets difficult.
I'm praying that I don't have to have another god damn LAPROSCOPY!!! You feel so butchered afterwards, like they've cut half my organs out.....
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. So I'm 99.9% sure that it's all over for me......again. I'm gutted to say the least and feel like someone just hollowed out my chest. Now I'm off to work and have to pretend to be polite and happy to people all day and have my boss rub her big pregnant belly in my face all day!
One more step closer.
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