Oh SP i have been stalking all day waiting for your results, im so so sorry my luv and it is just hideous that you cant get stuck back in i think thats what keeps us going. I know its easier said than done but please dont think your a failure, your fertility status does not effect who you are as a person, and you are one of the most caring people i have come across on BB. Hang in there sweetie and do what is right for you. really big cyberhugs SP thinkng of you.