Just popping in here to tell you guys of my experience I remember how I felt in all of my 2ww's and i was going crazy for info. I have been reading for the last couple of days and my heart and support goes out to each and every one of you.
The background.
I am 24 weeks pregnant from a transfer of 2 fresh 3day embybabies. It was my first boost cycle and I only had 2 eggs (out of 7 that were retrieved) fertilise. It was an experimental cycle because we didnt know how my body would react as my other cycles were the long ones . I had decided that I wanted to try the boost as I was running out of time before the medicare changes. After egg collection my FS did not hold out much hope as I only had 2 eggs that were mature. FS said that he knew exactly what to do for the next boost cycle and that we could start again really soon. Guess he REALLY didnt expect it to work lol.
Before this successful cycle I had 1 fresh cycle resulting in 1 blasty and 1 frosty blasty. Both BFN's.
What happened.
Day of transfer - had both 3day emby's transfered with no problems. One was a good 8 cell, the other was an ok 4 cell. I insisted on having both done, it was suggested that I have the 8 cell put in and let the other try to get to blasty. Nope. No way, no how.
I am pretty much done with blasty-waiting. I think that too many good, fertilised eggs are lost doing that. I firmly believe now that the embies are better off in my tum or frozen when they get to day 3. JMHO of course.
Anyways, after transfer I went straight down and had a strong coffee as I read somewhere that caffine is good. Went home and cried for the rest of the day, just felt sure it was all a big waste of time - wasnt going to work.
2-5dpt felt bad. Had pains in ovary area, irratable - basically AF type symptoms. 7-9 dpt got sore boobs and had definate pmt crampy pains. Knew it was caused by the horrid progesterone injections (no crinone this boost cycle). Ugg.
10 -11 dpt- weird stabbing pain in lower left side with a kind of dragging downward feeling. Thought a huge AF bleed was imminent. The stabbing pain almost felt like it was in my ovary. It was the only out of the ordinary pain I had. I now believe it was implantation.
11dpt- went to pub for lunch and had a medicinal guiness cos was convinced that i was definately BFN. No symptoms of pregnancy at all, everything seemed to be related to progesterone support.
12dpt- got totally fed up with waiting and decided to do a hpt while there was a chance that prog.support would cause a second line. Just wanted to see what it would feel like to get a bfp, even if it wasnt real. (yep, I had totally lost my mind at this point)
Did a hpt first think in the morning. Was negative straight away. Shrieked at DH like a mad woman that I "knew what negative looked like when i saw it" and to leave me alone when he wanted to check to make sure. ( not my finest moment but things arent always rainbows and sunshine when it comes to ivf). So, i threw the test away and cried for half an hour.
In the meantime, DH retrieved test from bin 15 minutes later. He sat and stewed for a while due to my previous reaction and then he came to me with the test. "Look at this" he said. "I might be crazy but i think i see a faint second line"... WELL. I snatched that thing out of his hand like it was a winning lotto ticket and peered at it like a mad scientist. OMG it f*ing did have a very very very faint second line!!! I made myself be calm and told him was most likely high progesterone levels, I would try again tomorrow morning. Went down and bought 5 hpt's for "just in case".
That day, no real symptoms to speak of, just some AF style cramps.
13dpt. Did second hpt at 4 am, faint second line still showing - it was 8 days since last progesterone injection, according to google it leaves the system after 7 days. I allowed a tiny bit of hope to creep in.
The next day, 14dpt, went for blood test. Result BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Very high HCG levels, possibly multiples. Interesting to note, even though my levels were very high (around 900) the hpt only showed a really faint line, even at 14 days after transfer.
IN TOTAL AND UTTER SHOCK. (still kinda am) Had scan after a few weeks, both embybabies from transfer had implanted. At 8.5 weeks one of the little heartbeats disappeared, vanishing twin syndrome. Was a sad but had to focus on the one beautiful healthy baby that remained. Took a few weeks to get over it but I am fine now. I am still absolutely AMAZED that this cycle worked and resulted in a baby. I was pretty much convinced that it only happens for other people.
Kept doing hpt's even after i got the bfp. Compulsively. They were faint for ages.
In summary -
-Horrible but true, symptoms mean nothing. Progesterone injections and crinone cause AF symptoms. AF symptoms are very similar to early, early pregnancy. So we cant win lol.
-Hpt's are the enemy. Although resistance is futile.
-You gotta have nerves of steel in this game. Its a gamble. You lay your money on the table and with bad odds, you give it a shot. Be prepared for disappointment. Hope for the best but plan for the worst.
- HOWEVER, remember that it does work. As long as you have the resources, keep trying. IT CAN HAPPEN FOR YOU.
Big hugs girls. I have my fingers and toes crossed for everyone.
Sammie
Last edited by sammiejam; December 7th, 2009 at 01:40 PM.
I remember how I felt in all of my 2ww's and i was going crazy for info. I have been reading for the last couple of days and my heart and support goes out to each and every one of you.
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