LTTTC Two Week Wait - Sept to Oct

[Loops12]

Still no AF ladies but I still think she is just around the corner. Im going to be away for a week next week at the Melbourne Show showing cattle so obviously I wont be on BB.

GL to all of you and I hope I see some BFP's on here when Im back. and hugs to you all xo

[Persephone1]

Crazy Ladies,

I'm still here, slowly sinking into insanity. I've been trying to do lots of guided meditation, even playing the CD in my car, so that I can keep as calm and relaxed as possible. But yesterday I had so many cramps and back pain - 8dpo, 3dp5dt, I was going mad. I'm trying to think very positively but that means hoping that this has worked and thinking like that freaks me out - if I let myself get hopeful, I'll be a wreck if it doesn't work! I hate the TWW! Plus, I've realised that I have had such a bad run that I'm now expecting AF to arrive, which isn't helpful, and the idea of actually being pregnant is almost too much for my brain to comprehend.

Tantee, my FET was on Wednesday, a Day 5. So even though my BT is listed for 14 days from Wednesday, I changed the date to the Monday before (I would have changed it to the Sunday, but they don't BT on Sundays). So we're TWWing together? Are you as crazy as me?

Now...this thread is mighty quiet...who else is TWWing? I'm confused.

Loops, have a good holiday and break from BB. I'd come out to the Show but crowds and other people's children freak me out...

[Persephone1]

Also, what are your thoughts on coffee? I love my coffee and only have 2 a day. I have been on decaf for the last 2 weeks but am interested to know anyone's thoughts on this. (The big issues huh? he he)

Tantee, I just remembered your question. As I sit here pondering your question, drinking my morning cup of coffee, I am reminded that I too have often wondered the same thing. In my 3+ years of TTC, I've done everything - cutting out all alcohol, elicit drugs , coffee, caffeine, sugar, soft cheese, smoking (oh, okay, so I was never a smoker, but I still had to stop myself from becoming one!), chocolate (pfft, yeah right), exercise (did you know that any exercise could harm your unborn child? That's what I have to keep telling DH!), I have realised that no amount of cutting things out will give me a baby. Obviously there are some things that are not good for TTC, pregnancy or baby, but on the scale of things, I've got more to worry about than my one coffee per day.

I also found that cutting out my coffee just gave me a headache and made me grumpy. When you're in the TWW you don't need the added stress. I am conscious of my coffee intake, and will substitute the occasional cup of tea for a chamomile, or choose the caffeine-free soft drink. I find the stress of trying to avoid coffee is probably more damaging to my mental health than just drinking it (in moderation) and feeling good about the minor indulgence.

Oh, and check out my Avatar message. You know how I feel.

[warriorgirl]

Thanks so very much everyone for helping me realise that I am not crazy. BT is on Fri 25th, and while the first week of the TWW isn't too bad, the last couple of days is madness every time. Am studying, working full time, have lots of hobbies to keep me busy, but I still find myself wandering around focusing on my body. Its like I can't think properly, and every little thing is a symptom of pregnancy or otherwise.

[Persephone1]

Ladies,

TMI: I've just gone to the toilet and there was a tiny bit of light brown cm. I'm 9dpo. I've checked all my records from my other cycles, and the earliest I've started spotting was 11dpo. I've had a good cry, feel sick to my stomach, but maybe there is still hope and this is implantation bleeding? I don't know. I'm devastated. And hopeful. And about to book myself into the psych ward.

Will update tomorrow. I'm thinking of doing a hpt tomorrow - 10dpt, to see if that can put me out of my misery.

[airline]

so sorry to hear that persephone....hugs

[Miss.B]

Seph, I have everything crossed for you hun I pray this is your turn I had AF type cramping around the same time as you. I had my 5 day embie transfered on a Saturday, and tested the following Saturday and got a very faint second line (you almost couldn't see it). I would test on Wednesday or even Thursday if that's what you want to do, not earlier. Praying for you sweets, you deserve it so much xx
There is still hope!!

[LondonMiss]

Hi. Seph - it's just implantation bleeding - it's the right time I think? Good luck beata too x

AFM - I'm finally back on the pregnyl and got my first scan tomorrow to see if I get IUI later this week so I'll be back in the 2ww then. hurrah hurrah

BTW - I'm with you on the coffee thing. I know it sounds gruesome and look away now if you are easily upset, but whatever the docs say, it's all got to be put in context. I know the docs want us to be cautious, but there are girls in Darfur who have been repeatedly gang raped whilst pregnant and still gone on to have normal healthy babies (and yet the world does b*gger all to help them....). So I personally doubt a small glass of wine or a daily coffee is going to cause a miscarriage, although I'm not advocating going on a caffiene/ alcohol crazed bender!! My FS keeps telling me, if it's going to fail, nothing will "make" it succeed. If It's a good pregnancy, nothing will "make" it fail.

[Baby Dreamtime]

Hi ladies, Just wanted to wish you all the best in your TWW, you especially you Seph.

Also just wanted to comment on the coffee question, I have a strong opinion , only because on the only cycle I got my BFP (after 6 transfers and BFNs) I stopped all caffiene from Day 1 of injections. I think my problem was to do with implantation, and there have been studies that caffiene effects the ability for the embryo to implant. Not that I am saying that this was the only reason why this cycle worked, but I wanted to do anything I could to overcome this problem and needed all the help I could get.

Just my thoughts, though I do know where you are coming from the other side. Sending lots of sticky vibes xx

[Persephone1]

Ladies, just an update.

I had a complete meltdown last night, thinking BFN thoughts. Still feeling pretty fragile and yuck today from lack of sleep & too many tears. But today, no more spotting...even when I search for it. But the cramps are intense. They're coming in waves, and sitting on my bladder, which feels full but isn't. (.)(.) are slightly tingly.

I've just told my boss I'll be needing time off for another stim & EPU, but was I jumping the gun? HELP ME oh gods of the TWW!!! I'm going INSANE!

I'm going sick with anxiety and terror. Why would someone play these horrible tricks on me?

I'm off to adopt.

[Coral73]

Ooohh... Persephone that is sounding very positive! Definitely could've been implantation bleeding and then the full bladder, cramps and tingly (.)(.).... they all signs of pregnancy! Fingers, legs toes and arms crossed for you that this is your long awaited BFP so heaps and heaps of to you!

[Persephone1]

Another update.

These cramps are excrutiating, but not like AF cramps. More like a burning, no - like a tugging. Like someone is stretching my uterus above their heads and dancing with it. I'm getting really upset and frustrated with it, about to have a panadol.

Also, still feeling a bit nauseus, but I don't know if that's because I'm tired. I just want to lay down and die right now, both from the intense emotions and the pain.

Only a teeny tiny bit of light brown spotting this afternoon - the teeniest smidgen you can think of.

So....FS has ordered me a blood test for tomorrow morning to check my prog levels. The thing is, I have some progesterone pessaries in the fridge from a previous cycle. If I use one tonight, does anyone know if this will affect the BT result tomorrow? I want the BT result to be accurate, but if putting in a pessary tonight is going to make any difference I want to do that.

Going mad. Fast. Thanks for your support thought!

[Loops12]

Seph - im about to leave for Melb, just wanting to wish you all the very best of luck and will be thinking of you and sending lots of . Sorry you are going insane, I truly hope you get the result you deserve tomorrow. FX & Hugs

[LondonMiss]

Persephone - did your FS tell you take a pessary?

[Persephone1]

Persephone - did your FS tell you take a pessary?

He didn't know I had the pessaries, and I only remembered after I hung up.

I feel really sick but don't know whether to be happy about it or not!

[LondonMiss]

i feel for you - it's horrid not knowing whether it's sick for a reason or just sick with the emotion. good luck for tomorrow. I personally would not take the pessary. You can always do it tomorrow morning if he says so... best best luck x

[tantee]

Hi Seph

You're symptoms are still sounding suspect... but in a good way! I know the pessaries can give symptoms of preg, so if you are not currently taking any, it must be your body doing it all on it's own.

I am actually on pessaries and have been for a week now, one morning & one at night(as well as estrogen) I was told if I do become UTD, they will need to be continued to week 12, so I can't imagine that it affects preg BT results. Saying that, you are best to speak to your FS before taking anything.

Loops - enjoy your break, it is well deserved.

London Miss & baby dreamtime - thanks for your thoughts on the coffee. I know it sounds pedantic even asking the question, however, it does have chemicals of sorts in it and I suppose I will try to avoid it until BT for my own peace of mind. (although a sip of DH's now and then may keep me sane). I understand that it is not the be all and end all but was just interested to know others' thoughts on the subject

To all you other ladies, may you all be blessed with BFPs this month. September is the time to flourish! Sending you all babydust.

[Miss.B]

Seph, all your symptoms seem very positive to me! I also felt 'full' in my bladder even after I emptied it, and that's what prompted me to take the HPT a week after my transfer. My boobies went sore a little bit later though, but the AF type pain was like you said, painful and 'tugging'. You poor love, you must be going mad!
I'm not sure about the pessary....
Good luck sweets, I have absolutely everything crossed for you!!!!!!

GL to all you other lovely ladies in the 2WW, may the next week or so bring lots of BFPs in here!!! Lots of & to all!

B xxx