LTTTC Two Week Wait - Sept to Oct

[Persephone1]

Also, what are your thoughts on coffee? I love my coffee and only have 2 a day. I have been on decaf for the last 2 weeks but am interested to know anyone's thoughts on this. (The big issues huh? he he)

Tantee, I just remembered your question. As I sit here pondering your question, drinking my morning cup of coffee, I am reminded that I too have often wondered the same thing. In my 3+ years of TTC, I've done everything - cutting out all alcohol, elicit drugs , coffee, caffeine, sugar, soft cheese, smoking (oh, okay, so I was never a smoker, but I still had to stop myself from becoming one!), chocolate (pfft, yeah right), exercise (did you know that any exercise could harm your unborn child? That's what I have to keep telling DH!), I have realised that no amount of cutting things out will give me a baby. Obviously there are some things that are not good for TTC, pregnancy or baby, but on the scale of things, I've got more to worry about than my one coffee per day.

I also found that cutting out my coffee just gave me a headache and made me grumpy. When you're in the TWW you don't need the added stress. I am conscious of my coffee intake, and will substitute the occasional cup of tea for a chamomile, or choose the caffeine-free soft drink. I find the stress of trying to avoid coffee is probably more damaging to my mental health than just drinking it (in moderation) and feeling good about the minor indulgence.

Oh, and check out my Avatar message. You know how I feel.

[Persephone1]

Ladies,

TMI: I've just gone to the toilet and there was a tiny bit of light brown cm. I'm 9dpo. I've checked all my records from my other cycles, and the earliest I've started spotting was 11dpo. I've had a good cry, feel sick to my stomach, but maybe there is still hope and this is implantation bleeding? I don't know. I'm devastated. And hopeful. And about to book myself into the psych ward.

Will update tomorrow. I'm thinking of doing a hpt tomorrow - 10dpt, to see if that can put me out of my misery.

[airline]

so sorry to hear that persephone....hugs

[Miss.B]

Seph, I have everything crossed for you hun I pray this is your turn I had AF type cramping around the same time as you. I had my 5 day embie transfered on a Saturday, and tested the following Saturday and got a very faint second line (you almost couldn't see it). I would test on Wednesday or even Thursday if that's what you want to do, not earlier. Praying for you sweets, you deserve it so much xx
There is still hope!!

[LondonMiss]

Hi. Seph - it's just implantation bleeding - it's the right time I think? Good luck beata too x

AFM - I'm finally back on the pregnyl and got my first scan tomorrow to see if I get IUI later this week so I'll be back in the 2ww then. hurrah hurrah

BTW - I'm with you on the coffee thing. I know it sounds gruesome and look away now if you are easily upset, but whatever the docs say, it's all got to be put in context. I know the docs want us to be cautious, but there are girls in Darfur who have been repeatedly gang raped whilst pregnant and still gone on to have normal healthy babies (and yet the world does b*gger all to help them....). So I personally doubt a small glass of wine or a daily coffee is going to cause a miscarriage, although I'm not advocating going on a caffiene/ alcohol crazed bender!! My FS keeps telling me, if it's going to fail, nothing will "make" it succeed. If It's a good pregnancy, nothing will "make" it fail.

[Baby Dreamtime]

Hi ladies, Just wanted to wish you all the best in your TWW, you especially you Seph.

Also just wanted to comment on the coffee question, I have a strong opinion , only because on the only cycle I got my BFP (after 6 transfers and BFNs) I stopped all caffiene from Day 1 of injections. I think my problem was to do with implantation, and there have been studies that caffiene effects the ability for the embryo to implant. Not that I am saying that this was the only reason why this cycle worked, but I wanted to do anything I could to overcome this problem and needed all the help I could get.

Just my thoughts, though I do know where you are coming from the other side. Sending lots of sticky vibes xx

[Persephone1]

Ladies, just an update.

I had a complete meltdown last night, thinking BFN thoughts. Still feeling pretty fragile and yuck today from lack of sleep & too many tears. But today, no more spotting...even when I search for it. But the cramps are intense. They're coming in waves, and sitting on my bladder, which feels full but isn't. (.)(.) are slightly tingly.

I've just told my boss I'll be needing time off for another stim & EPU, but was I jumping the gun? HELP ME oh gods of the TWW!!! I'm going INSANE!

I'm going sick with anxiety and terror. Why would someone play these horrible tricks on me?

I'm off to adopt.