LTTTC Two Week Wait - September/October 08

[Nicole S]

Jodie, glad to see you found your way here and welcome to the club

buliej, all the very best for your EPU on Monday...hope you get lots of eggies

Belinda, thanks for checking in on all of us. Catch you next Saturday

[LuckyStrike]

Hi Everyone

Glad the weekend is finally here.

buliej - good luck for EPU on Monday. Hope you get lots of eggs and a good fertlization rate so you can do the blasty transfer. :goodluck2:

JodieC65 - Welcome to the 2WW thread! 2 of us a are testing on the 25th and 4 of you on the 26th. I hope its a good week for all of us. How are you feeling so far? Any exciting signs?

NicoleS glad you didnt have any pain today, and that you are in a better mood today. I guess that is what the 2WW is about, we all have our ups and downs.


Farmgirl, Alloy, how are you going?

Kaydee - I hope you bleed has stopped.

AFM 6 sleeps to go!
But I am 99.9% sure that I may not even get that far. All the usual symptoms that happen before AF are here. Last night I even broke out in a sweat in my sleep which usually happens few days leading up to AF. I feel very negative at the moment, I am so dissapointed in myself. I didnt want to set myself up for dissapointment, but I had such high hopes doing this cycle and now I am almost certain its over. I just feel angry, I cant understand why I'm not PG yet, when DD was conceived naturally in a short time.
Anyway i'll be moving straight into a new stim cycle once AF arrives, assuming I am not completeley wrong about this. How I wish I am wrong! But the first giveaway for me was when the breasts stopped hurting.

[Meo]

Hey everyone,

Can I be added as the 5th tester for the 26th?! We've been TTC since 06 for #1 and tried Clomid/Metformin without success for my PCOS. Got a new (NICER!!) FS this cycle and had our first serious help in the form of IUI. BD'd on the evening of insemination too, just to be on the safe side! I know the Clomid worked this month, so fingers crossed, but I know I'm over analysing EVERY little symptom. Isn't it the way? Still, not that long until testing now . . . Good luck to everyone. I may test earlier as I don't have a BT, only HPT to hang out for at this stage, but I'm trying to convince myself that I can wait until Friday. I figure if I don't buy one until Friday, I won't be tempted to test early (AF is due Friday)!

[Nicole S]

LuckyStrike, don't count yourself out as yet...it isn't over until the witch sings.
Don't forget that our bodies have been poked and prodded, we have been on meds.

I guess this is easier said than done as we know our bodies so well by now and every time we feel something going on inside we feel that the worst is going to happen.
I too was like that on Thursday after my sharp pains as I relate that to AF but that could just be my body and I just identify it as AF is on her way.

Take care and try and keep positive and distract yourself with anything, shopping, movies meet friends until Friday.

The way I am trying to look at it is that we have 6 sleeps till we know what is going on and for the best possible outcome.
At the end of the day Embie is still on board and try and focus on that, in my head when I start to feel a little blue I keep singing to myself 'All we need is one' and this helps put some reality on what we are trying to achieve.

Meo, welcome to the TWW...and of course you can be added as the 5th tester

I think we should change the thread name to the AF Free Zone!!!

Hope you ladies have a great weekend

xx

[farmgirl77]

Hello all,
Welcome Jodie and Meo - and good luck for your BTs on the 26th - I cant belive that so many in this thread will be testing on that day!

Buliej - good luck with the pick up and wishing you all the best for getting some great blasts!

Luckystrike - - try and hang in there - I know how difficult it is and how crap you feel, so there is not much I can type to make you feel better because the only thing that will do that is a BFP, but I'm thinking of you.

Nicole S - hope that you are going well and I agree with your suggestion of an AF free zone...if only we could arrange that

Kaydee - how are you travelling - did you end up getting the bt to check your levels? If you did I hope it was ok.

hi to everyone else, wishing you a good weekend.

I'm feeling crap today - BB no longer sore, AF cramps occuring and have my tell tale bad mood and emotional feelings prior to AF, so I'm thinking i'm out. told DH and now he is just in his 'clamed up, grumpy, this is how I deal with things as a boy' mood which makes me feel like I have to be cheery to try and make him feel better! am just so over going through the whole hope and then no hope, and especially leading up to xmas, just the isolation of all of this, just makes me so upset and mad esp as this time we are losing two embies, and prob only have one more transfer left from this cycle...and then i dont know what as I think DH is ready to give up - too much emotional and financial stress - but he just does not realise how much it will hurt to lose this dream of kids and how much that will isolate us, or me more so (the boys still go and do boy stuff), from my friends (all with babies), family cause the grandkids are the primary focus and we wont produce any, and from this town as I thought I'd meet people through mothers group, kinder etc...god knows there is nothing else here to meet people through! am sorry, am just not dealing well with this today...

[dusty]

I think we should change the thread name to the AF Free Zone!!!

It is possible....!!! This is one area no one wants to see AF for at least 9 months...

Hugs to you all in the TWW . Its going to be busy in here on the 26th...Wishing you all the best you ALL deserve it.
xx

[Nicole S]

Oh Farmgirl, try and stay positive
It is so hard I too imagine that I can feel AF but then think my mind is playing tricks on me.
This is not the end of the road for any of us, WE WILL hold that and for some it just might take us a little longer BUT IT WILL HAPPEN!!!
TTC is so hard on your emotions you doubt so many things but one thing is for sure when we each do have that baby all this BS will be worth it and we will be great mums because of it.

Dusty, glad u like the thread name change.
Always thinking of you and your BFP is only around the corner

[JBM]

i like tha name AF free zone too.
good luck to all in TWW . sticky vibes coming your way

[buliej]

Good luck to everyone - hope the TWW flies by and ends with a bunch of BFPs

Farmgirl - firstly, I hope AF stays away! but if she arrives, remember you're still so young...have you considered taking a break for a good couple of months - letting you & DH enjoy life without thinking of all this IVF TTC stuff...and then re-starting when you have had a mental break, time to regroup and save some $. Also, you never know when the next medical break through will come. A few years ago blasties weren't even possible. I'm sure they are making improvements on a monthly basis (or I hope so!). The break is just an idea - maybe worth considering ...

[Alloy]

Farmgirl , I hope that you are wrong and your body is playing tricks on you. I'm so sorry that your feeling so down!! I've still got my fingers crossed for you

Luckystrike, I'm sorry your feeling doubtful too. Isn't this 2ww an awful business. I'm still crossing my fingers for you as well, you never know.

I know how your feeling though. My bb have stopped hurting, and I'm starting to get pimples which is what happens every month in the week before AF arrives I also had to go for a blood test on Friday, and my levels were too low so I had to race back to the clinic after results in the afternoon to get 2 x Pregnyl 1,500 shots. I had to have the first shot Friday night, and then the other on Monday night. This has also dropped my bt back to Monday 29/6 so I've dropped the number of testers for the 26th. That's the main reason for me now thinking I'm out. I hate this, I have so many friends at the moment that are getting pregnant/having babies, and I'm really struggling to remain cheerful and upbeat for them, because I don't want to lose friends because of this (and at the end of the day, I know they haven't set out to get pregnant because they know I can't) but it's just so hard right now. When I was waiting at my clinic for my blood test on Friday morning, I was chatting to a girl who was 7 weeks pregnant. This came from her 19th ICSI cycle, and her and her DH had decided it was the second last try. It's nice to hear stories like that, but honestly thinking about it, I'm not sure I could last that long.

Sorry for the long post. I hope everyone else is going along well.

Welcome to the newbies, your 2ww goes fast!!

[Nicole S]

Alloy, sorry to hear that you too are doubtful this cycle.
This truly does sux....
As for the women who did 19 icsi cycles my mouth almost hit the ground!!!
Financally and emotionally this would be a killer.

AFM my bb are not hurting as much this morning but still had a stitch like feeling yesterday so who knows.

Enjoy the rest of the weekend ladies and I hope that this continues to be a AF Free Zone!!
STAY AWAY AF WE DON'T WANT YOU!!!!!

[JodieC65]

Hi Everyone and hope you are all having a lovely weekend, and trying not to stress too much. Welcome also to Meo - no. 5 for the 26/9 - there sure are a lot of us waiting for this TWW to be over.

I too am feeling quite crappy today - a bit hormonal and emotional and feeling quite a bit of pain mainly down my left side - bit like a stitch. The AF cramps are coming and going, but not too strong - so fingers crossed hey

To Alloy, Farmgirl and Luckystrike - keep on smiling and try try to remain positive, although I know first hand how easy that is to say.

Nicole - I hope that the pains you were having have subsided and that you are feeling OK today.

Lets all hang in there and remember the BFP's will happen.

I do agree this is a AF free thread - so STAY AWAY AF, WE DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU HERE.

Sending you all a big

[Kaydee78]

Hi girls,

Luckystrike, I hope feeling ok. It's hard not to read into the changes in our bodies and still remain positive. If AF hasn't started, keep that hope.

Welcome Meo and JodieC65. Hope you girls have been feeling well and you have some happy news by the end of the week. There's so many of us testing on the 26th.

Buliej, good luck for your epu tomorrow. Hope you get lots of eggs and fertilisation rate is high.

Farmgirl, it must be so hard for you socially to be isolated where you live. I can't imagine what sort of pressure you're feeling because of that. I'm so hoping you get your bfp soon, I'd imagine more doors would open in terms of meeting people. Stay strong for the rest of the week. The changes in our bodies, the ones we always read as meaning AF is on its way, may be hormonal changes for good reasons. My fingers and toes are all crossed for you.

Alloy, glad they were able to catch the lower hormone levels and give you pregnyl booster shots. Your preg BT would have been moved to allow the pregnyl to be out of your system by BT day because it can give a false positive result if you test too early. The woman you spoke to who did 19 cycles must have been an incredibly strong woman to keep going again and again.

AFM, I haven't had any more bleeds like the one last week. A little light spotting now and again but I'm not stressing about it... I guess I've come to the point where if this cycle doesn't work, I'm ok - we'll just go again. I felt really crappy the day of the bleed and while the nurse said it could mean anything - because everyone responds differently to the hormones and treatment - I guess I'm more relaxed about the result on Friday. It would be so awesome if it's worked, but if it doesn't, there are still options for us in doing another cycle with one of our frozen ones. We'll see if I'm still as relaxed about it all as we get closer to BT day!! I finish Crinone tomorrow but pessaries don't finish until Thursday morning. Apparently if AF will start it will be within a few days of finishing Crinone.. Not sure if the pessaries have any effect on AF coming or not.

Sorry for the ridiculously long post! Hope you all enjoy what's left of the weekend.

[LuckyStrike]

Hi Girls

Kaydee - Glad you are feeling better about the spotting. Atleast you have embies ready for a FET. I guess all I can say is dont rule anything out yet and hopefully AF will stay away and there will be a suprise BFP for you.

NicoleS keep strong, you seem to be going well so far, I have a good feeling about you this month!

Alloy sorry you are feeling bad as well. The only thing I would say to you though, is that if the clinic didnt think a pregnancy was possibe for you they wouldnt bother with the Pregnyl shots. You must still be in the race otherwise they wouldnt make you continue for nothing, and your BT was moved b/c the pregnal may give you a false positive if you test too early, so keep your chin up! Hoping you get your BFP this month.

AS for the lady being pregnant aftere 19 cycles, that is unbeleivable! I know definiteley we would give up before then. That is a long time and a lot of stress, a lot of 2WW's and not to mention a lot of money. Good on her for being strong enought to do it!

Farmgirl, sorry you are feeling crap too. This process is very draining emotionally and financially. The other day my DH also told me that he is willing to do 1 more stim cycle and then wants to stop and give up. He feels very dissapointed that our chances this month arent looking so good. Its been really hard on both of us, I pray that I am completeley wrong about all this and get a nice suprise on Thursday but I'm not holding my breath. Good luck for Thursday too, lets hope by some miracle we both get a happy suprise. I think I'll spend the day crying with delight if happens

Buliej good luck with EPU tomorrow, hope you get lots of good eggs.

Meo and JodieC65, I hope you are doing well!

AFM Its been a crazy few days. First the BB going back to normal, then the night sweating, well a couple nights ago I started noticing chunks of the crinione coming out of me with small amounts of blood through them. And then today .....the chunks had a lot of blood thru then (sorry TMI) Still no AF, but I have these red clots coming out of me. I called the nurses, just to see what they want me to do, and she was really nice. She said I should still continue with the crinone and I should rule myself out yet. Apparently some women get aggrivated from the crinone and it can cause what I was describing to her. She said it could be the start of AF or it could be crinone but I shouldn't write myself off yet. I told her I was not very positive b/c of the BB's going normal again, but she said that the meds make our bodies do strange things. Anyway This has not made me feel any more positive, but I guess while I dont have AF I am still technically in the running. I, like Kaydee have come to terms with the fact that most likeley I'll be getting a BFN this month, but will be going straight back into a stim cycle, so I guess I'll be moving on one way or another.

Sorry for the extra long msg today but I havent been on for a while, and also lost 2 posts yesterday, so I was determined to get something in today!

4 more sleeps until BT so lets just see what happens.

Happy Monday for tomorrow.

[Alloy]

Hi all,

Thanks for all the warm wishes and lovely posts!

Luckystrike, I hope that the meds are making your body do strange things, and you have a surprise BFP at the end of this week

Farmgirl, I hope your feeling a little better. I am so sorry that you think your DH is ready to give up! I hope you are able to get across to him that this is so important to you. I'm so lucky that my DH is prepared to go with what I want, as I'm the one that seems to suffer the most. He's still convinced that we won't have too much trouble, so isn't too worried at this stage. If we get through the 4 embies we have left in the freezer, and have to look at another stim cycle, it might be a different story though (especially if he has to deal with me falling apart each time I get AF or get a BFN). Hopefully the meds are wreaking havoc with your body too, and you too get a BFP at the end of the week!!!

Kaydee, I'm glad your spotting has stopped, maybe it was an implantation bleed! It's good that you've prepared for a BFN though, I have too, and I think that's best because it's better to think that way and be surprised with a BFP, than to be expecting a BFP and get a BFN!!

Buliej, Good luck for EPU tomorrow!! I hope it's not too bad for you, and you get a decent amount of quality eggs

Nicole, I vote to change the thread name too!! Hope your still feeling positive, and that that stitch feeling is a positive.

Jodie, I hope your cramps are a positive thing too, and your feeling ok today

Meo, Good luck for Friday!!

I'm feeling a lot better today. Luckystrike, I did start thinking about the pregnyl shots the other day, and agree 100% with you. If the clinic didn't think I had a chance, they wouldn't have bothered with the shots. I've still got my fingers crossed for a BFP, but at the same time I'm also prepared for a BFN. We've still got 4 frosties in the freezer, so that's a few goes of FET before we have to look at another stim cycle, which will make it a little easier.

to anyone I have missed

I hope this week goes quick, and we get a record number of BFP's after all the tests on Thursday and Friday

[farmgirl77]

Good morning all,
Just reading back through the posts it seems that we all had an emotional or stressful weekend - well at least we are on the home strech now...

Alloy - glad that you got your shots and that you are feeling positive. they are just want the little one needs to keep it snugg and growing. Bummer about the move of BT day, but hang in there.

Kaydee - it is amazing what the 'lovely' meds they put us on do to our physical and mental state. Last stim cycle I found that AF came when due, even while I was on the Crinone - about 2 days prior to BT day, while when doing FET and using the pessaries, AF does not come till after the BT and I stop using them - and then it takes 2-3 days to come..so I dont know, we all react differently! Glad that you have a positive outcome - i think it just get to that place where we have done all we can, and all we have left is to just wait and put in place the plan for the way forward.

LuckyStrike - i to am at the stage where the crinone starts 'exiting' the body - great stuff NOT. Just shows that it is a product designed by men in labcoats who have no thought for 'keeping things nice'! I'm glad that the nurses have said not to count yourself out...but know how hard it is to belive in it. Good luck and sending you lots of .

Jodie - hope that the AF cramps have stoped. Maybe they were just the little one snuggling in . Hope you are feeling better emotionally today

Nicole S - hope that you are still feeling good and in with a chance!

Buliej - good luck with the pick up and wishing you lots of embies that go onto blasts!

Meo - hope that you had a nice relaxing weekend and are feeling nice and positive.

AFM - thanks everyone for your kind words - it meant alot . For our first stim cycle AF came 2 days prior to test day, with spotting the day before (TMI), so I'm thinking today and tomorrow are make or break days... Had a big chat with DH and explained that not only am I upset at the fear of not having a family but at the isolation (but not from his family - that may have been a bit too much), and after sleeping on it he was far more understanding...so that was good.

Still no pg signs, but AF cramps have settled so who knows. My brain says it is a BFN but somewhere in my heart there is still hope - prob so I will still get upset when the nurse rings to give me the BT results....

Anyway sending you all positive thoughts that AF will stay away. Hello to anyone I missed.
FG

[Possums]

hi everyone, sorry to hear a few of you are having a rough time in this TWW and I still have hope for all of you and pray lots of BFPs are coming up this week.
It is such a trying emotional rollercoaster and it takes its toll in all sorts of ways.
try and hang in there until the BT ladies.
My thoughts are with you all. I'll keep checking in.
Love Emma

[Nicole S]

Hey ladies, sorry no time for personals at the moment work is doing my head in

I just wanted to send lots of to all.
This TWW is nearly to an end for most of us so am ing really hard that we hear lots of BFP by the end of the week.

I am sure you are feeling the pressure and every day we are a step closer to our BFP.

AFM, am so stressed and am trying to stay calm and positive. My first IVF cycle ended a week after transfer making that day today so stay away AF your not wanted

LETS KEEP THIS AN AF ZONE!!!!

Will pop back in latter to hear how you are all going